Under my Shell { a bowserxluigi fanfic }

Chapter 31: Worried

I don't know why but I've always loved the way things flow. I've always stared at water envying the way it can be so free while also flowing so smoothly. I guess the maple I'm pouring onto the pancakes in front of me reminded me of the calm and relaxing stream I used to watch at home. I close the lid and place it on the table, looking up I see Bowser grab the bottle after patiently waiting for me. He is... so gentle. I cannot believe this is the one everyone is so afraid of. I grab my fork, and dig into the stack of pancakes in front of me. I slowly raise the fork to my mouth before indulging in the fluffy cakes he made with care. I've never really had a thing for pancakes. Mario on the other hand loves them. But these.... these were amazing, I can't believe a king who has a whole kitchen of experienced cooks even bothered to learn how to cook.

"Well ?" I watch as he stares in anticipation, looking at me with a soft yet hopeful gaze. "How are they ?"

"These are amazing Bowser..... honestly the best Pancakes I've ever tasted." A wide smile over takes his face as a soft red accompanies it.

"The best huh ?" He says before taking a bite himself. I cannot help but giggle at his cockiness, I know where it's coming from he wants to impress me so badly. I pick up a piece of bacon taking a bite, mmm so crispy. Just the way I liked it.

"Yeah , you are a very good cook Bowser. I'm actually kind of jealous" I give him a smile before going back to my food.

"Good enough to make you mine ?" I look up to see him smirking at me, his eyes showing every inch of cockiness he has in him. I feel my face go red, I half choke on my food causing me to quickly grab the juice next to me and take a drink.

"Hah you wish."

"Hmm I don't think so, you getting all choked up and flustered kind of gives me hope." He lets out a soft chuckle before going back to his food. I want too. I want to give in so badly and let his big arms love and care for me but I can't seem to accept it. There is just too much at stake. "I know what was said, I know there is truth in everything that's been said. I just...." He pauses looking into my eyes before taking a deep sigh. "I don't think I can bring myself to give up. I love doing things for you, there is nothing more I love to do then watch a smile form on your face. My heart skips a best every time I see a blush come across your cheeks. There isn't anyone I want more...." He face turns red as soon as those words came out of his mouth. "I mean ! There isn't anyone else I can see myself with." He says with a nervous chuckle I watch as his face grows brighter before he takes a drink of his juice. I don't want him to give up, but I know he probably should. It breaks my heart to even think these thoughts, he destroys and crushes my soul to see him try so hard. To hear him tell me how he will never give up how there is nobody else he wants. Are we cursed.... am I cursed ? The first person I've ever had a connection with. The first person I've felt these weird feelings and sensations with and the entire world attacks.

"I think.... I think I'm meant to be alone forever." I mutter out. I can feel my gaze soften as I look up at the worried king. "Besides, I've never done this before. What if I'm terrible at it, I don't think I can be a good boyfriend...."

"Hey.... Don't, you have no idea how much you've done already." I hear his chair scoot back, followed by his footsteps approaching. I feel his gentle hand touch my back. I look up at him, as soon as ours eyes meet I can feel the tears forming.

"I'm sorry, it's just been a lot." That was all I could even say. Gods damnit why can't I think of anything else to say ?

"I know..... I can only imagine, Mario must be on your mind right now. He left out into the unknown, we don't know what could be waiting for him. I saw Breath leave heading towards the Mushroom kingdom. I can understand why you sent him, I'm sorry I didn't let you go I just.... I've been so worried about you. I'm scared that if you go you want make it back safely." His words didn't seem to help, all they did were remind me of what I've been trying to suppress.

"I'm scared.... I'm so afraid." I wipe my tears away before taking a deep breath to recollect myself. "I'm sorry, I just. I need a minute."

"I understand, I'm here for you.... Whatever you need." He stands aside as I push my chair back. "How about I'll meet you at the garden...?" I look up at him with dry eyes.

"Okay, I'll meet you there." I bring a smile to my face. I don't know why, why won't I just let him be here for me. I don't think I've ever let anyone be there for me, emotionally that is. I'm afraid to get anyone get close....

"Can I hug you...?" He opens his arms a bit, unsure on my response I assume. There he goes again, one second so blunt and forward and the next shy. I don't give him an answer. I just throw myself onto him. My arms wrap around his sides and my face burrows into his chest. I can feel the tears want to come out again once his arms wrap around me but I won't let them. I've already embarrassed myself enough in front of him. "I will always care about you." I smile before breaking loose from the hug. I don't know why but hearing those words seemed to lessen the blow of my own thoughts.

"Thank you Bowser.... I'll meet you at the garden."

"Don't be too long, I have a surprise for you !" My eyes widen at those words. I wonder what this surprise could be..?

"I'll try my best to be quick, see you soon." I give him a smile before walking off towards my room. I hope their both okay...