More Than Just Sisters ✔︎ [GL]

21 || MY SYMPHONY

SIERA'S POV:

She was gone. She was gone and I couldn't even make her return. She came to me but still pushed me away and gone. Gone for always. I didn't even know when I would be able to see her again or if ever could.

I was still standing in that corner; shocked, surprised, frustrated and annoyed. A tight knot was forming in my throat as well as my heart was drowning into the unknown amount of pain I was holding back.

With a long exhale, I rested myself on a couch and hid my face inside my palm. No, no tears, no crying. Even in that chaos place I felt the loud silence surrounding me. I was drowning, drowning into the all words that had been escaped from her delicate lips. Why was my life so messed up there?

Now I knew why father was always so quite from the day mother left. All the time I believed there was a conflict between them, I never asked him nor I ever wanted to know. Yes, I indeed wanted to know, but I gave him time to explain when he would feel like. He even told me once...

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//knock knock//

"Mhm...come in.." I said while reading a book on my desk.

I heard the door opened and a raspy voice called while clearing throat, "Siera..?"

I turned around sighing in frustration and rolled my eyes.

"What do you want father? I'm reading now.." I said being quite annoyed.

"Well, Siera I'm sorry that I yelled at you for nothing, it's my fault..actually I was having a bad day.."

He said while sitting on my bed and looked down.

Well, me and my father just had an argument and he just shouted at me for absolutely nothing. The argument was about mother. My own mother.

"So what do you want now?" I said, quite unbothered.

"I want to tell you something...at least you are the one to whom I could take this pain out of my chest.."

I kept quite wanted him to continue.

"Actually...I have never cheated on your mom, the conflict which took place between us; I guess it was all planned. I have never in my life thought of cheating on Kohima with someone...not even in my worst nightmare..she was the only one I thought I could rely upon.."

His voice became unclear due to the difficulty he was feeling inside his throat.

Hearing my mother's name after so many years from my dad's mouth, I felt chill ran through my spine. I guess only from his mouth my mother's name sounds like pure honey extracting from the beehive.

Feeling me saying nothing, he looked up to my eyes and said again..

"Trust me, everytime I look at you, my mind conjures up those peaceful and happy moments I used to share with your mom; which I shared also with her when we had you. I believe you are just a gorgeous piece of her, nobody could ever be replaced where she and you belong in my heart..."

I could vividly see in this daylight that, the slightly wrinkled corners of his eyes were glinting. I felt how much he did love and feel my mother with all he was.

And there he was beaming; hiding the weakness he have ever feared to show me. Still he stayed strong.

I got up from my chair and sat on the bed. He smiled at me, though his soul was tearing up into million of pieces.