My tomorrow are all mine

Chapter 10

That night I slept so well. The bed was comfortable and the house smelt like food and pine. I slept hard all night and then I found some wrangler jeans and a shirt with a cowboy hat on the dresser. I take a good shower checking all my scars and bruises and they are barely noticeable. I get dressed and fix my hair into a messy low bun.

When I get down stairs it's seven and everyone is sitting eating their breakfast. I walk over and have a seat. I put my hat on the chair and I look at Hazel and she smiles. I look at Rena and she also smiles. I look at Bill and he is chewing some bacon.

" Good morning Sir." I say

" Good morning Florence." He says

" We didn't want to wake you. We figured you would need some extra rest after traveling." Rena says

" Flo, Do you want to watch me ride my horse Chester?" Henry asks with choc milk stash.

" I would love to, Henry." I say pouring some coffee and making my plate.

" I think I will go to Gunners house today." I say " I slept so well last night. I really do appreciate how amazing everyone has been. I just feel that I haven't had a day or night to myself in a long time and I was thinking maybe I can ..."

" Say no more," Bill barks. "Skinner will take you over after lunch and chores.

" Skinner?' Rena says " No I will take her thank you. We understand that you want to walk tall on your own again. Gunner will be here so fast I think a week to yourself might be a good idea."

" Exactly" I say

" I will take you after chores. You can help me feed the horses." She says

We finish up breakfast and I help Hazel wash the dishes as Rena dries them. It is like therapy. I have never had help with dishes ever. It was my something to do to escape the pain of the situation for so long. I would look out my window over the sink and pretend I was in a loving relationship. Where he would help me and talk to me like a human. Not like I was his maid. I picture is face and drop a plate on the floor. Both of the girls jump.

" Oh my goodness are you okay?" Rena says

" Oh my god I am so sorry. I will buy you a new one. That must be expensive. I am so sorry." I say too fast.

" Honey, it's not a big deal." She takes my hands in hers and raises me back up to a standing position. " Memories are hard to escape sometimes."

" Yeah I have too many to escape I fear." I say

"Why don't you go get some air honey." Rena suggests

" Thank you, maybe I should." I say walking to the door.

As soon as I walk outside I feel the anxiety attack start. I run down the porch to a chair and sit down. Then I take really slow long breaths to try to get it to stop. I kept telling myself to just breathe. Just keep breathing. Then the pain is gone. I hear the door open and out comes Rena.

" You ready?" She asks me " Chore time. We got ate now it's their turn."

" I am ready." I say standing and walking with her to the barn.

She shows me how much to feed them. How to feed them and explain when we feed them. I try to soak in all of the information the best I could. When we were done she took me to Gunners house. It's a five minute walk just out of sight of the ranch. It's got a gravel driveway and a small porch on the front. It's all stone and has black shutters. The roof is black metal and as we get to the door I already feel at home. She opens the door and it opens to a living room with a fireplace and it's an open concept with a small country kitchen with white cabinets and wood countertops. He has a small round table and chairs.