My tomorrow are all mine

Chapter 19

I woke up to a very painful bladder. I wattle down the hall to the bathroom and Gunner is taking a shower.

" Good morning my love." He says from the shower. I was 9 months along now and feeling every pain. I felt every kick and hiccup. It was great but I was on bed rest and Gunner was my live in nurse. That was strictly ordered from Mama.

I was told to call her Mama now that it felt wrong not to. So I excepted. Sir insisted on me calling him dad. But I told him I liked Sir. Which made him smile.

" This girl better come soon, Gunner. I am gonna pull her out." I say annoyed

He laughs and continues his shower.

" She will be here soon. Don't rush her, she is a fighter like her mama. If you pull her out she might bite." Which makes me laugh and that makes my hips and belly hurt. " go back to bed. I'll bring you breakfast."

" toast?" I asked excitedly, " grape jelly?"

" yes chickadee" he says knowing that is all I wanted for weeks now. Cravings are very real. One night was caught eating peanut butter and olives together and Gunner got nervous. I ate the whole jar and loved it.

I am 3 days late on my due date and I am getting tired. I take a lot of naps and read a lot. Gunner even bought a television. I made him take it back though. I like not having a television. I like talking and reading and Gunner does too. So he happily returned it that day. I crawl into bed and wait.

Mama and Hazel put the nursery together. As soon as we told them it was a girl. Mama got out Gunners old crib and bought a new mattress and sheets and a bunch of clothes. I was so excited but now that I am so huge I am just so tired.

" okay baby toast for my girls" he says way too excited to be waiting on me.

" come lay with us please. I need your hands. My back hurts." I say he crawls in behind me and spoons me. Rubbing my stomach and then massaging my back.

" You know it's been a bit. Might be able to do anything for a bit." He whispers in my ear.

" eww Gunner.I am huge" I say

" Yes you are." He laughs which makes me laugh. " but I still want you."

" yeah?" I say

" Absolutely, maybe try what got us here." He offers

" Can I eat my toast after?" I ask

"Baby you can eat your toast during." He laughs again" I hear it helps with pain."

He takes my panties off and starts with me. He makes circles and moans and realizes it really does feel good. I am forgetting my back pain. I close my ears and he kisses my neck. I feel his flick and my breath skips. Then he sits me up so he is behind me and I am resting on his shoulder. One hand works its magic while the other plays with my breast. After a few minutes we heard a snap and the bed was soaked.

" no way" I say

" Wow, that worked well" he says with a shocked look on his face.

" Call Mama" I almost yelled. From excitement and because I'm scared. He kisses me and hands me my toast. I love this man so much.

I finish my toast while I hear him call Mama. I down the last bite when he walks in and the contractions start.

" Two minutes later she said" I will go grab the keep." He says. He bought me a jeep thinking we need one with a baby. It was one of the best ideas he had. I tried to get out of bed with Gunners help and he grabbed our bags. I leaked water down my legs as I went and down the stairs. When I got to the counter I was having bigger contractions.

" About time Honey." Mama says walking in the door smiling. " Gunner and you go to the hospital. I'll clean up the mess and meet you there.

" thanks Mama" I say, taking Gunners hand as Mama puts my shoes on.

We get to the hospital and Gunner opens my door for me. I have a big contraction. They are getting closer.

" You're gonna be a Mama." Gunner whispers while breathing. I smile and that makes me get out of the car to get this baby out of me. After ten minutes and five pushes. I was holding my brand new baby girl. Gunner held her and cried. I held her and nursed her taking in every minute. Making sure she was perfect. She was seven pounds seven ounces and perfect. Her black hair was curly. Her cheeks were chubby and not one issue was found.

I held her in my arms for hours then after two days we all went home.

We got to introduce Dee Fern Wilco to the whole family. Then a week later the angel I named her after got to meet her too. Of course we didn't tell them about Blake and what we did. They stayed for a few days and then went home. We enjoyed every minute.

She slept through the night so well and then she didn't and one night Gunner found me crying in my rocking chair with her just trying to get her to sleep. She was a gassy baby so she was always crying and he took her from me and told me to go to bed and he bounced her until she passed out. When I woke up I found him asleep in the rocking chair holding a bottle. She was asleep in her crib. I could never love him more than right then.

We were a mess, nothing for right everything smelt. The house was messing and I felt like I was going crazy. So one morning Hazel and Rena showed up and told me to take a shower and Gunner too and get dressed to go out. Told me to pump and leave it in the fridge and said they will be cleaning the house and taking over baby duty. It had been 5 months and I was tired and needed a minute to be me again. So I listened.

When we were ready to go Gunner settled up the houses and we went for a ride. He took me up to the other side of the mountains and I saw a camp tent and a fire going.

" It's not anything too special but I thought a night out here under the stars would do us good." Gunner says dropping down off Whitt and helping me off Honey.

" This is so thoughtful baby, thank you." I see he made up a cot with blankets and two chairs next to the fire.

We sit and talk about the time we have had with Dee and that we are so happy to name her after me. His chickadee. I told him about how I was feeling and he told me how he felt. We laughed and I cried. Then he takes my hand and just holds it looking at the stars. I love the stars.

" baby I love you and our little family so much." He says

" me too baby" I agree and he wraps a blanket around me. Then drops to a knee. " Oh my god Gunner!"

" Chickadee Macay, will you please marry me? I don't want anyone else. I don't need anyone else but what we have. I have loved you from the first time I met you on that old porch of mine. Hell I think I loved you before that but seeing you that day took my breath away." He smiles his Gunner smile " marry me please?"

" Yes baby I will" I say so happily I feel the tears pouring down my cheeks. I am so happy. I am exactly where I should be and then I whisper in his ear. " My tomorrow's are all ours."