My tomorrow are all mine

Chapter 17

I go to work on a Friday and I am in my new yellow floral dress I bought. I have become a regular and I really like the owner now. I let my curls down and styled and my makeup is not much but mascara and eyeshadow. I work most of the day alone. Then Lydia comes in. We were not very busy but there were a lot of fishermen looking for maps and women looking for a life other than their own. I start stocking books and hear the door ding. I look up and see a man in his thirties looking at the maps and flyers. I walk up to help.

" Hello Sir, how can I help you?" I say

" Oh, I am looking for a specific map. Oh I found it." He looks at me and smiles." Florence." My heart sank.

" How do you know my name? I say he points to my name tag. " oh duh yes I forgot that's there." I walk over and go to cash someone out. Then they leave while he still lingers looking through the maps.

" You know Florence is a unique name not heard much these days." He says " does this cost anything?"

" Oh no, they are free to enjoy your day." I say hoping he would leave.

" You know my buddy with me has a girlfriend back home named Florence." My heart sank lower. I feel the panic attack starting. " She was really great about him coming here. It was her idea I guess. Or so he says" he takes a bit of his granola bar and walks to the door. " Anyway have a great day, Florence"

I don't even remember him leaving, I just fell to the floor. When Lydia found me I was holding my legs and swaying back and forth. My tears were already there. I just know that Blake is here.

Lydia calls Gunner and he shows up faster than ever. Picks me up and takes me home. When I got home he took me right to bed and I stayed there till dark.

"GUNNER! HE IS HERE!" I scream from our bed. He flys in the door and looks at me.

" What baby? Who is here?" He says

" Blake, he's here. He sent someone in to talk to me today and it all went. Lack from there. " I'll explain. He was on his phone before we knew it telling everyone to be on the lookout and describing him. Mr.Sir ordered everyone to watch out tonight to be alert. They closed the barn doors just in case and we all slept in the big house.

We slept in that house for a week when nothing happened and we went back home. I apologized to Mr.Sir and he said nothing to be sorry for.

We make a snack and I sit on the counter watching Gunner dance in our kitchen. I worry how to tell him something that I don't know how he is going to feel about it. He runs his hands up my naked legs and plants a kiss on my lips.

" I love you so much baby it hurts." He says

" Do you?" I say taking a bite of a snickers bar. " I love you too."

" oh yeah how much?" He says

" well enough that it boiled over and made a baby." I say with a smile.

" That is not fun. FLORENCE. I am going to be a daddy?" He asks with tears in his eyes.

" I know it's not funny love. But let's forget that name. I don't want that name said anymore. Call me anything else." I tell him I'm still eating snickers bar.

" I can call you mama soon. How far?" He asked, holding my stomach. " How are you doing? Is everything okay?"

" slow down baby. I am twelve weeks and everything so far is fine." I tell him

" Baby that is the best news ever." He says " we need to build a bigger house. Do you only want one?" He looks into my eyes. " You make me so happy."

Another week goes by and no Blake and no fisherman came in so I went back to work. We decided to not say anything to anyone because I wasn't sure if I was capable. I was just so terrified.