My tomorrow are all mine

Chapter 16

I got up that morning feeling complete. I was ready to take on any obstacle that was thrown at me. I drank my coffee and went to work leaving him a note as well.

My love

You are the piece I have been missing in my heart. I am complete now. I am happy. Thank you for loving me.

Love Chickadee

The day passed fast and we didn't get too many customers. Lydia asked me about my date and I gave her no details, just a smile and that it was exactly how it should have been. When my shift was done I got home and walked into the big house. Everyone was cleaning up and I saw a plan for me on the counter.

" Here you go honey. Eat it when you get home." Rena says I walk out and see Mr. Sir walking up the steps.

" Goodnight Sir" I say

" Goodnight Florence." He grabs the door and then my hand. " Does he make you happy?" I shake my head yes. " Are you happy here?" I shake my head yes again " well all right then, go home sweetheart."

" thank you" I say

" for what?" He asked

" teaching him how to love without saying a word or needing to crowd someone. I needed that." I tell him

He just nods his head and I run home.

When I get on the porch Gunner is sitting on the porch in his chair. I get a smile and then I crawl in and sit on his lap with my dinner. Which makes him laugh. I kiss his cheek and neck then his lips.

" I missed you today" I admit

" oh yeah?" He laughs " what part of me?"

" Every part" I take a bit of the steak on my place. " your mama's cooking is amazing. I miss eating dinner with you guys. I used to feel like part of the family."

" We miss you there." Gunner agrees " Henry specially"

" yeah?" I was a bit shocked. " How is Honey?"

" She's good. Went on a long ride with my dad today." He looks out over the view.

" for what?" I ask

" says I should make a honest woman out of you" he explains which makes me stop chewing " I told him in time"

" good" I say, still a little nervous.

We spent and hour on the porch talking and kissing and then made our way inside. Gunner made a fire and we sat on the couch. Snuggled up under a blanket.

I lay between his legs so my back is to his chest and he holds me. I feel him play with my hair and trace lines down my neck. I buck my chest when he lifts up his sweatshirt I changed into. I feel his heartbeat and mine picks up too. I feel him play with my exposed nipple.

"Gunner" I say

" love?" He whispers in my ear

" Friday is my birthday" I tell him I have been dwelling on that all week. I have never had a birthday. I have never celebrated. I have never been important. Gunner makes me feel important. " Can we have dinner here, just us and a small cake?"

" Well mama will kill me but my love. She is already planning it." He says

" what?" I say excited and shocked he stops what he is doing and I turn to look at him. I kissed him so hard. " I have never been so loved, it hurts sometimes."

" I can fix that hurt" he say in his sexy voice. He pulls my in to chest. We kiss for a while and then he stops. " Turn love lay back how you were. I want to watch you."

I turn and lay down on his chest. Resting my hair on his shoulder. He traces lines on my stomach and works his way up to my nipples again. Twitching and pulling gentle. Then his other hand makes it's way down my leggings. He rubs and teases me. Side in and out and around. With flicking and twisting my nipple at the same time. Before I felt it we were a mess on the floor all over each other and spent. I put his sweatshirt back on and walked to the kitchen for water. He just payed there on his side watching every move.

" my god you really are sensational" he says " everything about you makes me happy and excited. I love watching you and touching you. You are amazing."

I walk with a glass of water back over to him. Sit on the floor and watch the fire. " So Gunner, let's go to bed. I am very tired."

" I bet." He stands up and folds the blanket and puts it on the couch. " I am exhausted as well as my love. Let's go."

He takes my hand and leads me up stairs. We do sleep eventually after hours of talking about things we did in the past. I am finding it easier to talk about the past more today. I talked to Lydia about it and she told me about hers. She even recommended some books about dealing with panic attacks and anxiety.

I sleep so calmly falling asleep the sound of his husky voice whispering to me. While I hear his heart beating and I can smell the always hypnotizing smell of him,Old spice. I am falling in love with him and his kindness. I am falling in love with all of this life.

When my birthday came I was so blown away Rena made me a cake. A chocolate cake with buttercream frosting. Gunner also gave me an amazing present. In the empty stall in the barn was a beautiful black horse. They named him Whitey. Which I found so funny. He was beautiful. I looked at Gunner and he smiled.

" Do you like him?" Gunner asks

" Love him Gunner thank you." I say, still a little hurt.

" good love because he is mine and I am giving you Honey." He says pointing to Honey sticking her head out with a bow in her hair.

" really?" I was so excited I was going to jump out of my skin.

" yup she is all your my love" he says kissing me on the cheek. That whole birthday was amazing. We had a night to remember.

For months we had the same routine. Every Friday he picked me up from work and took me to ice cream. I was not reading as much but I had a lot on my plate. Plus I was happy. I had a lot of talks with Mr. Sir on the porch about how things work and that we really should get married. But we don't care right now, we just want each other and time to learn more about each other.

Gunner brought up kids once more and that was our first small fight with each other but it was only because I had a really hard day. I had dumped coffee on myself, dumped so many books on the floor and ruined one. Trevor was great though and well he sat me down asked me if I was okay and Gunner came and got me. I was getting tired of not having a vehicle. I ride into town with Hazel and then home with Gunner or Rena.

When he said our babies will be as beautiful as their mama. I lost it. I slammed my hand on the counter and I said " ENOUGH" then fell to the floor. Gunner came over and looked at me.

" baby you okay?" He asked, trying to console me.

" Stop bringing up kids" I say and he takes my hands in his.

" Okay I won't baby I am sorry." He says

Then he noticed I was holding a spatula. He just gave me a look and we both burst out laughing. We lay on the floor winding down from the crazy day. That was a great night.

I have officially been at the ranch a year now and have a fully committed and amazing boyfriend. Nothing could go wrong, nothing could change me. Nothing could change us.