My Unholy Obsession

Chapter 52 - Lucifer

- 2 days later -

"Amore, would you calm down?"

"No, I can't calm down, so many things could go wrong and I don't even know if I'm ready for this, I could mess so many things up just by talking and—" she continued to ramble, pacing back and forth.

I got up from my chair and grabbed her by her shoulders, looking down at her. She looked back up and me, trying to control her breathing as she had been panicking for half an hour now.

"Lucifer.. I can't—"

"Shh, stop worrying and just focus on my face, okay?" I softly said, placing my hand on her cheek.

She nodded in response, placing her hands on top of the one I had on her cheek. She took in a deep breath and exhaled, finally calming down enough to have a stable breathing pattern.

Ella's mother had just recently gotten in contact with her and said that she wanted to come see her. Me and Ella were both drinking last night so she said 'okay' without even thinking about it, we continued making out after that. This morning she got a text about the details so we could all meet up together.

Her head fell onto my chest, her arms wrapping around my body. I wrapped one arm around her body and held her closer to my body, massaging her head.

"If she actually shows up I swear I'm going to kill myself." she said with her face buried in my chest.

I rolled my eyes and pulled her away, looking at her face, "Don't say that, I'm sure she's not that bad."

She roughly pushed herself away from me, "Not that bad?! She hasn't been in my life for years now, probably for a reason, she hated me! And you're going to fucking stand here and tell me that shit?!"

"Watch your fucking mouth, don't ever talk to me like that." I sternly warned her.

She dropped herself down on the couch and looked up at me, "I'm sorry, I'm just.. I don't know, stressed out."

I sighed and sat down next to her, pushing her head to lay on my shoulder, "I understand, but I will be here the whole time so she can't do anything to you and we can always leave after."

We both stayed silent for a bit of time, gathering our thoughts. This was going to be the first time I ever met a girls parent, I never thought this day would come. It was bad enough she hadn't seen or spoken to her in years.

"What if she hates me like I hate her? What if she thinks I'm stupid or ugly even? Oh god, I need to wear a shit ton of make-up, don't I? Well, I should go practice th—"

"Ella."

She stopped talking and looked at me, a small shocked expression on her face that switched into a frown seconds later.

"You only say my name when you're mad at me.." she muttered lowly, almost sounding like she was going to cry.

"I'm not mad at you, amore. I just don't want you to change yourself for anyone or put yourself down like that, you're beautiful just the way you are. You have no imperfections in my eyes, you're perfect in every way." I assured her.

She paused for a second, looking down at her legs and playing with her fingers, "But what about in her eyes, what if she thinks I'm fat or something? I know I am but I don't want her to point it out, you know?"

'I wish you could see yourself the way I see you.'

"You are no where close to fat, you're gorgeous. If only she could see how beautiful her daughter has grown up to be, how strong and energetic she is. She's going to regret not being there for you sooner, just wait and see."