Moira (Ateez AU)

Chapter Nineteen

⚠️this chapter includes abuse, bullying, and Self Harm⚠️

You were walking out of your science class. You were at school already without the boys since you left early to talk to Mrs. Jeon before classes could start. You were walking down to your locker when Jinseong came up to you. Your hands instantly started shaking as you looked up at him with wide eyes.

"I see you were whoring around despite the threats." He snarls as he looks at your neck. You froze, you forgot San's hoodie on your bed to cover the hickeys. Tears gathered in your eyes. Jinseong laughed a you and shoved you to the floor, you caught yourself on your wrists and pain shot through your hand and up your arm. You cradled your right wrist to your arm and sobbed out.

"Fucking pathetic!" He yells as he stomps down on your leg. You screamed out as he kicked you in your stomach again. You couldn't breathe, your eyes swimming into darkness. Jinseong walked away soon after. You were panting in pain. You couldn't let the boys see you like this.

So you forced yourself up and slowly walked yourself to the exit. Once you were out you took a deep breath before walking towards your house. Every movement caused pain to shoot through your body, every breath was hell and felt like you inhaled fire.

You eventually made it home, although you felt like passing out as searing pain was constantly running through your body. You got to your room before passing out. You needed blood to heal this much in a quick amount of time but you didn't have that option when you could barely move. You gasped for air as your vision goes black and your body goes limp.

Eventually the sound of footsteps wake you up, your mind panicking as you recognize them as yours dads. He slams your door open, stomps up to you, and yanks you up by your hair. A scream tears through your throat as he shoves you to the floor. You couldn't breathe as fear seizes your body.

"You stupid bitch! You skipped school? We pay for you to go there and you can't even attend your class?! You want to be a whore, a no body, your entire life?!" He screamed. You couldn't move as he kicked you in your stomach and ribs, over and over as each word came from his mouth. Every word was another kick. He kicked you one last time as hard as he could before he stormed out your room. You couldn't take it anymore. You wanted to give up and give in. You crawled to your bathroom and fumbled about in the drawers until you found it.

You couldn't stop sobbing as you looked down at the scars already on your arms. You couldn't stop it. The feeling of control over something in that moment too good to pass up. Every sting of pain fueling you to keep going. You didn't even notice the amount of blood until your brain caught up to what you had done. Sobs wracking your body as you shook. You dropped the blade immediately as panic surged through your body and regret settled into your mind.

You didn't know how long you sat there sobbing until you heard someone burst into the bathroom. You panicked, scrambling back against the wall and curling into yourself. You ignored the pain in fear of being hit again.

"Shit! Guys she's in here!" You heard the voice of Wooyoung say. You looked up immediately and saw the way his hands trembled as he dropped to his knees in front of you. His pants soaked in the blood as he applied pressure to your arm. You hasn't even noticed how bad it was until that moment. You looked up to the door and saw the others there.

"I-I'm sorry, I couldn't- I-" you could barely talk. You couldn't think. Your mind was blank. The pain and mental turmoil you were in had won. You hadn't even noticed that your fangs were showing due to your need of blood. Your energy was gone. You whined out when the scent of their blood hit you all at once, overstimulating your senses more. HongJoong's eyes widened.

"She needs blood! Yeosang? Wooyoung? She needs it to heal." He panicked. The others immediately started panicking as well. Wooyoung simply exposed his neck to you and pushed your head closer, keeping his now bloody hands over your arm to stop the bleeding. You sniffed his neck and mumbled an apology before your teeth sank into his neck. He gasped softly at the pinch but gently rubbed your back as you drank. His blood was like Yeosangs, extremely sweet and addictive. It took a lot of energy to pull away after a few mouth fulls. You watched his wound close and turn to scars after you licked it.

Wooyoung picked you up and you passed out in his arms soon after. Your body needed time to heal and the trauma you went through had your mind reeling. So to save yourself, your body gave up and you passed out once you knew you were safe.

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You woke up hours later and sat up. The scent of vanilla infiltrating your nose. You looked down and saw you were now in a new t-shirt instead of yours from earlier. Your arm was also wrapped up. You could still feel the pain in your ribs, head, and arm. You looked and saw your other wrist that Jinseong stomped on was also wrapped up. You could feel the pulsing in it as your bones tried to heal back together from being snapped. You slowly got up and off the bed. You stumbled a bit but continued your walk down the stairs and to the living room.

You were breathing heavier as you got to the last step but continued into the living room. Leaning against the door way you looked up when you heard a commotion and watched as Jongho quickly ran next to you. He gently walked you to the couch where you sat next to San. You leaned your head on his shoulder. You could feel their eyes on you.

"I'm sorry." You finally say after a couple minutes.

"Why're you sorry Bub?" Yeosang asked.

"You guys had to find me in a panic attack and hysterics. I'd never wish for anyone to find someone in that position." You say quietly.

"Darling, you were going through a lot. We can't blame you for your condition when we found you." San whispers as he wraps his arms around you. You nod slowly. You felt so bad still. HongJoong walked over to you and squatted in front of you. He made eye contact with you as his thumbs rubbed your thighs.

"Dear, you were going through something. Never apologize, ever." He whispers. You nod and grab one of his hands, intertwining your fingers.

"Hey Joong?" You whisper. He nods at you to continue talking.

"I think Wooyoung was wrong." You smile softly. He looks at you in confusion.

"It's two full blooded faeries and six full blooded demons that has a mere half breed around their fingers." You giggle. He instantly shoots up and pulls you from San's arms to hug you himself.

"Yeah I definitely think it's that way instead, Wooyoung was definitely wrong." You giggle out as you hug him back. You couldn't see the way they were smiling at you, but you could feel the way their hearts all lightened and the tensions lifted.