Moira (Ateez AU)

Chapter Twenty

You hadn't seen the boys in a few days, and that was due to you avoiding them. You still felt really bad about them finding you in the position that they did. You also couldn't hide your feelings anymore. You felt like your chest was gonna burst every time they were around. Especially because now, your brain would replay the way you kissed San and Wooyoung, or your moments with Mingi and Yunho.

    You were currently in lunch. You had escaped to the girls bathroom to avoid your locker a for a bit. Your mind was on overdrive. You so badly wanted to just, give in. To tell them you liked them all. But the thought of being rejected and losing them had your mind in such a swirl you had to do one thing to calm yourself. So you snuck out to the football field.

    You hid behind the bleachers and just allowed yourself to feel. The nature around you immediately becoming attuned to you. You felt the presences of spirits all around you and tried to cast one spell to help as many at once as you could. It was a full blooded witch spell and ritual, so it only would work so much for you.

     You sighed as your mind calmed down, Sage having come and laid down in your lap to give you silent strength. Or at least you were calm until one deep breath had the scent of Mint filling your lungs and you opened your eyes immediately to meet the dark eyes of Choi San. You gulped as the others scents filled the air soon after as they walked closer. You fidgeted with your fingers. You refused eye contact.

    "Uh hi?" You said softly. You didn't wanna look back up, but you heard someone clear their throat and San forced you to look up. You made direct eye contact with him and your mind panicked.

    "Why're you avoiding us again. Hm?" He questioned. You whimpered softly and tried to move back, Sage who was sleeping in your lap now awake and watching carefully. Your thumb gently rubbed between his ears to let him know you were fine.

    "I-Uh. I um. I can't say it.." you whispered. It was embarrassing. You so desperately needed to say it but your brain and heart were at war. You didn't wanna be rejected but knew you'd feel better if they knew how you felt about them all.

    "Bunny? You gotta tell us. We can't help if we don't know what happened." Jongho speaks up. You whined softly and shook your head as your eyes teared up, a small pout on your lips.

    "It's embarrassing." You look up to Jongho, then to Yeosang who speaks next.

   "Even if it's embarrassing we can't help if we don't know." The Faery urged. You huffed and shook your head.

   "Hun. Please just tell us. It hurts when you avoid us. We wanna help." Seonghwa softly says.

   "Please bun?" Wooyoung urges.

   "But, but if I tell you I'd have to leave immediately after to save myself from embarrassment." You finally relent.

   "I'm sure it's fine baby." Yunho says.

   "I agree, I'm sure you'll be okay little one." Mingi smiles softly at you.

"Come on pup, you can tell us." HongJoong encourages softly. You sigh and fidget with your fingers. You take a couple deep breaths to avoid the question for a bit longer. Finally you build the courage and say it.

   "I like you. All of you. And I mean like like, not just as friends but more. I'm sorry if I ruined our friendship, I really wanted to avoid doing that I was just gonna ignore my feelings and take a break to lock them up and-" you didn't get to finished your rambling. In seconds you felt San's lips on yours, his hands in your hair as he pulled you closer to him. Your eyes fluttered shut as you slowly kissed back. He pulled away and your eyes were wide. However that didn't last long until you were picked up and spun around by Jongho. You gasped and held Sage tightly to your chest.