𝚑𝚒𝚐𝚑 𝚜𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚛 // billie eilish

part twelve

TW SUICIDE

billie pov
1:48pm

i woke up with my head throbbing and by body hurting.

"ah, your awake" syd said. "what happened last night?" i asked. "you may or may not have gotten high" syd said with hand gestures. "what" i said blankly staring at her.

she laughed and walked out the room.

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"most people who try weed for the first time dont really remember." she said. "did you remember your first time?" i asked. "uhm, honestly i dont know. i was told that i was insane and couldnt stop laughing." syd said. i shrugged and brushed it off.

a/n
im just going off of what happened to me when i got high for the first time. meaning i didnt remember anything.

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2:25pm

"i dont recommend smoking w-" syd was cut off from a text. she put her phone down and slumped down in her seat and stared off into space. "whats wrong?" i asked. she didnt answer and kept staring off into space. "syd, what is wrong" i said starting to get mad.

i saw a tear roll down her cheek and knew something was wrong.

"my mother, s- she killed h- herself" she said. "w- how? and why?" i asked. "she w- was found with a g- gun in the kitchen of her house" syd said about to break down. i sighed.

"its okay, its okay" i said hugging her.

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syd pov
finding out your mother died is the worst news of a lifetime. shit makes me wanna jump off a bridge.

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i was laying in billies arms when i got a call from lex. "you gonna answer that?" bil asked. i couldnt speak without crying so i shook my head. "you want me to answer it?" she asked. i nodded. billie picked up my phone and answered the call.

"hello"
"shes sleeping"
"shes doing okay"
"ok bye"

i heard him say 'dont let her kill herself' at least he knows.

billie put my phone back on the nightstand and continued to hold me.

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billie pov
3:17 pm

syd was asleep so i decided to get up and get some water.

i walked down the stairs and ran into lex. "what are gou doing here?" i asked completely confused. "sorry, i was just coming over to check on syd" he said. "i also need to talk to you about something" he said after

i just rolled my eyes at him.

"your jealous, am i right?" he asked.

lex - italic
billie - bold

what if i am jealous, theres nothing you can do about it.
why you jealous all of a sudden, little bitch?
because i dont like you around syd.
i know her more than you do. you dont understand what shes going through.
oh really? remember jahseh? how hurt do you think i was? how close do you think i was to him?
bitch i dont know
exactly, then how do you know what shes feeling like? how do you know what shes thinking?
because ive seen her in this state before. she tried to kill herself.
she told me about it.

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lex and i continued to fight.

syd pov
4:31pm
"then ask her yourself if you dont believe me." i heard billie yell. who the hell is she talking to?

i stood at the stairs watching them fight.

"yo! if your gonna fight, take that shit outside" i said. they both looked at me and wanted to say something. "dont say shit lex. i heard you. i told you not to tell anyone didnt i?" i said. i watched the lump in his throat go down slowly. "billie, did i tell you that lex is afraid of me?" i said walking down the stairs. she smiled cause she knew what was about to happen.

i stood at the bottom of the stairs towering over lex by three inches. (hes 5'2) (syd is 5'6)

"why dont you get your ass outta my house" i said. billie sat down and watched me. "what why?" lex said. "my house my rules. now get the fuck out" i said starting to yell. "nope" he said crossing his arms.

i grabbed him by his hair and pulled him towards me. "get. the fuck. outta. my house." i said. he looked me in my eyes. i pushed him off of me and he fell on the floor. "go shove your dick in some girls pussy" i said smiling. he got up and walked out of my house.

5:21pm
i put my hands in my pocket and sat down on the couch. i threw my head back and sighed. "your such a show off" billie said and laughed. "nah" i said.

billie got up and sat next to me. "for some who was breaking down and having panic attacks your sure okay now" she said. i shook my head and closed my eyes.

"you should get some rest" bil said. i shrugged and sighed.

i stood in pain and leaned over grabbing the table for balance. "lemme help you" she said. i threw my arm over her shoulder and she took me to my room.

i laid down and billie threw herself onto the other side of the bed. "lets not do that" i said wincing in pain. "oh, sorry" she said. i hummed and got comfortable the best i could.

its not fun being in so much pain that you cant sleep. shit sucks ass.

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"why are we in a ball with water and something called earth in the middle of nowhere?" billie asked. i looked at her weird. "where the hell did that come from?" i asked so confused. bil just started laughing non stop.

billie - bold
syd - italic

where literally in the middle of nowhere.
what do you mean
space is nothing right?
uh... sure?
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earth is a ball, so the people on the otherside of the world are walking upside down right now.
what the fuck are you talking about? the earth is flat
why are the pictures of the earth round then?
uh..
exactly. i argue about this with everyone. theres also no mass in space.
theres always weight or mass in space. nothing is weightless.
then how come leaves fly?
did you go to school
yes
well, you need to go back

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1061 words

they continue talking about space lets say that..