New Beginnings (MegMani)

5

Megan~

"And I know how you want to go for a more modern look, but what about a cabin styled home? Especially if we plan on moving to North Carolina. It'd be a lot of fun and we'll have more surrounding space being near the lake. I was actually thinking we could build everything from the ground up. That way we can ensure that you have your art studio and Akira could possibly get that arcade room she's been asking for. With the new promotion I'm getting, we'll be set. What do you think?"

Megan smiled excitedly as she talked about her and Beyoncé's new plans to move. It's been a work in progress and Megan is hoping to start building their home soon. Though Beyoncé doesn't really care about all of that, she's just ready to start a new life in a new city.

Megan awaited her wife's answer but she just sat there with a sorrowful look on her face. Now she was concerned. Her wife was normally the happy one of the two of them. She loved planning things and always looking forward to their weekly talks about how their new home would look.

"Megan, I have to talk to you about something."

"What is it?"

"Sit... Please."

Megan quickly sat down next to her wife on the couch. Worry was written all over her face and she tried searching for answers in her wife's eyes. They always told a story, most of the time they said what her mouth couldn't. It was why the two of them clicked so well. They were easily able to read one another without having to say anything.

"I had a doctors appointment today."

"Okay?" Megan was confused because she was the one that drove Beyoncé to the appointment. "I know that Bey, I took you."

"I left out some details of the visit."

Megan furrowed her eyebrows, now she was even more confused. "What kind of details? Are you okay? Is it the stomach pains again? Did they find out what it was?"

"No, it's not the stomach pains... This time."

Megan searched her wife's eyes for an answer again. Her eyes always said something that words couldn't. They normally had an answer before she could even spit out what she really wanted to say. What was she getting at? "What's going on Bey? If it's not the pains again then it must be the back pain you've been having? And you have been sleeping a lot more than usual. I'm not a doctor but it seems like it could be something you and I both know isn't possible between the two of us, so maybe you could ex—

"Baby please," Beyoncé sighed and put her hand on top of Megan's. "You're doing your ramble thing that you do when you're nervous. Please just breathe and relax."  She watched Megan take a deep breath and nodded, "I went in today to figure out why I've been having so many issues and so, so much pain in my body." Beyoncé closed her eyes and sighed, "they ran a few tests and it turns out I have stage 3 cervical cancer."

Megan's face was full of confusion—she wasn't sure what to feel in this moment. Beyoncé felt the energy in the room shift. From this point on everything would be different. "I-I'm sorry I'm not quite processing this... C-cancer? You have cancer?"

Beyoncé took note of the look on her wife's face and softly placed her hand on Megan's cheek. She turned her face to make her look at her and stared her wife in the eye. "I'm going to be fine. There are so many treatments to try and so many options available for us. We'll be okay... I promise."

Megan wiped yet another tear from her face. It was 5 in the afternoon on a Wednesday. She had gotten halfway through a bottle of wine and had Family Feud playing in the background as she attempted to complete some work. A very low spirited feeling fell over her today as it marked 7 months since her wife's death. She knew it was coming up, but she thought she had gotten all of her crying out and that by now it'd be a little easier. She was quite wrong about it.