SINCE I MEET YOU

WALK

As soon as the wind brought dust from what was left of ashes to my face, I went to the window, seconds later I took the money like a light coat to go out, I had in mind getting drunk until I lost consciousness, but, when I opened the door ...

  I sighed—haven't you already left?
  Serious—iie...until you explain to me what happened with you.

  I held my hair...

  "Did you fight with him?"

  -...*something like that *

  "did he do something to you?"

  —...*no, but I do*

  "Did something happen between you?"

  I walked clenching my teeth—...*kuso...why does this have to happen to me?*
  —Uh...you know what I am, demo, I don't know much about you, I find myself at a disadvantage and it doesn't seem fair to me.
  —...*gosh, won't you shut up?*
  —you are not going to talk to me?
  —...*I'll get hurt if I don't find a solution*

  "Nani? Did I do something?"

  —...(I sighed) urusai (closes his mouth), I want to remain calm, will it be possible?
  Surprised—...gomenne.
  —kankeinaku(doesn't matter) do you drink alcohol?
  —this...
  Annoying—stop being so scared, do you drink or not?

  "...h...hai, not much of..."

  —urusai, it's a lot of information and if I wanted to be informed of something I would read anything or watch the news.

Finally, as soon as he was silent, I bought several bottles: wine, cider, vineyard, beer, whiskey, Tequila, etc.  Then I took him to a cemetery, where several relatives and acquaintances were, I didn't need to see him to know that he was the same as me...

  "Kioshi...Kobayashi-Kioshi, onnee-chan's boyfriend."

  —nande?
  —Jun...ani desu, he, like many others here, died doing her duty, he risked her life to save her.
  —...
  —it was, his 3-year anniversary...(drinking) the poor man just wanted to propose to her, demo, the "kizu"(injuries) arrived...a group of gangsters he was related to, had firearms with the ones that would have killed her, except that he hid her.
  —...
  I laughed bitterly—they were expecting a son...3 weeks, 1 day, 10 hours, 7 minutes, 16 seconds, 38 micro-seconds, 50 thousandths and counting.
  —...
  —It was the only time I saw her so excited, we all didn't always get along, demo, when she found out about her pregnancy everything changed *is it so difficult to be happy here?*...that's why she went with them, she wants revenge like... well, you get it.

  "...why are you telling me this?"

  Inhale—*I would like to know the same...what are you doing to me, Kaneki Ken?  *because I wanted a good reason to cry before getting drunk, (I gave him one) kanpai Kaneki-Ken.
  Surprised—...kanpai,(Y/n)-chan,gomenne.
  I smiled—shinpai shinaide, the good thing about drinking in places like this is that you're not completely alone and... there's no problem if we stumble everywhere, no one will see us.

We put the cans together before I gulped down mine, I knew it wasn't the first nor the last I'd drink and even so it didn't feel the same as always, maybe because at that moment I didn't feel completely alone, or it could be the The simple fact of seeing him pensive with the can in his hand, knowing that he couldn't take it as lightly as I did made me smile (not to say that I was laughing like crazy), I took it from him, finishing the same as the others, the The atmosphere got hotter, so much so that I almost undressed right there until I passed out...again.

SLEEP...

  —Everyone around me has died because of me, first oba-san…

  If I had given him his medicine when they told me to, I would not have given him unemployment.

  Then ototo-san...

  Even though he deserved it, he should have let her inject him so he wouldn't suffer that fall... 10 floors, it wasn't that bad either.

  Lastly Kioshi...

  I warned him that playing with those guys would send him to prison if they didn't kill him, if I had told him they were going home he would continue with Jun and his son... or daughter, whatever it was.

  —Now I don't know what will happen to Kaneki, that woman said nothing more than revenge...should I tell him?...I don't want to die yet, demo, I don't want him to hate me either, yes, I feel something for him...and I don't want this to end, although I don't know if I'm reciprocated, I still don't know how to write his name...(Y/n)-Kaneki, it doesn't sound bad, Mrs. Kaneki...Kaneki...Kaneki...Kaneki .

Resonant—(Y/n), y/n, y/n...?

  Kaneki...suki da io...suki da io Kaneki-Ken.

  Smiling like a fool I felt myself rise from the ground, without any kind of help, which leaf in the wind, light leaves moved by the cool breeze of the wind towards no particular destination, just letting go...