SINCE I MEET YOU

MADNESS

"So you just wanted to...live in peace."

  ha... like many others, even though some of the humans believe we are a threat, making us act like what we are... a bunch of cannibals.

  Distraught—demons, creatures that don't deserve to live.

  a mistake of existence.

  —Product of the selfishness of the human itself.

  a fissure of the earth...

  I ripped out my throat—AGHHHHH!!!
  —I see that you're done, now tell me... where is it?
  —AGHHHHH!!!, n... I don't know!
  —Don't raise your voice to me. (He cut my skin)
  —agh...(I cried)...*Kaneki...tasuke(help me)*...(whispered)onnegai.

  Are you ready to lose your mind?

  —I don't want to die, demo... I won't allow them to hurt him either, not him.

  Who, to blame for your miserable transformation? Admit it, (whispered) never really cares about you.

  —That's not true, he...he loves me...or...I think so.

  And where is he now then?

  "...ore wa...shiranai..."

  And because you do not know?

  "Because I don't know much about him..."

  Because he doesn't trust you, even though he tries to deny it, he's just like us, a ghoul after all.

  —He's a ghoul... and I eat his...(grabbed my shoulder)

  finally you understand

  "So he just wanted to…eat…me?"

  —like these too, even if that woman told you that you served her to get revenge on your boyfriend... (sighed) we know that he will devour you at any moment.

  —I don't want to die...(anguished) not today...what should I do?

  watashi wa shiranai, it's your problem, they involved you, demo, so it seems they won't get you out, so you must find a way out... do you know what you'll do when you get it?

  "...iie, I have a lot of questions to answer."

<<ottoô-san, can I go play with onnii-chan?...demo, ottoô-san...why can't I go out like the other kids?!...ha..I know, why? onni-chan>>

  —what was that?

  your memories apparently, demo, who were you talking to and about what?

  —...iie,ore wa...oboetenai/I don't remember/...or well, I think I've seen that house in my dreams.

  "I believe, I believe, I believe, I believe" everything with you is based on beliefs.

  "That's why I'm here... I'll need help to get out."

  Now do you think they will help you?

  —You're right... demo... there are no exits anywhere.

  He hugged me—use that big head to find a way out... (she whispered) before they eat you.

  —Why don't you do it once and for all? It's what you wanted from the beginning, right?

  You just need to say it, (tasted my face) come on.

  Disgusted—...I'll set you...free.

  I walked away on my back, as if I was absorbed by an immense void, I no longer felt tied but neither alive nor dead, I was suspended in a total space; again the electroshocks woke me up, they no longer hurt, on the contrary, they filled me with energy, then they changed due to the cold and hundreds of voices around.

  —again we are reunited for a spectacular show, my beautiful creature...a ghoul hybrid!  who initiates the offer?

  "Will it be the same as the last one presented by Mr.  Gourmet?"

  We should try...

  —¥500!
  —¥10,000!
  —¥30,000!
  —¥500,000!
  —Someone who offers more... right?, then sold to mr.  Gourmet.

They pulled me out of there, I didn't understand anything about what had recently happened, my body was just aching a lot, yes, that guy like the others was a ghoul, it would be my last night. As usual I was locked up with his vermin devouring me, when I They took me out to "the gourmet" the light hurt my eyes, it just moved like a worm.

  "Here it is, your new victim."

  "Actually, she's cute, adorable... she reminds me of someone. (She combed a lock of hair, caressed my cheek).

  — "Yes, yes" I'm not interested, just take it with you. (She pushed me)

  I fell to my knees...

  "... daijôubu? (Are you okay)" she held out her hand "what's your name?"

  —...(I whispered) (Y/n)...I didn't kill myself onnegai.
  —kill you?,iie,that's not my thing,demo,as I said:"you remind me of someone" and I wouldn't be able to end up with something that reminds me of that,so you can calm down (You)-chan,come on, you must clean yourself

  He left a sack on my shoulders, he hugged me helping me to walk, I didn't feel my legs, absolutely nothing, not even the cold, I thought of Kaneki, he didn't help me when I needed him, now I didn't know if I would see him again; a beautiful mansion The peace was palpable and evident...

  Entering there were several servants, from entrance to exit...



  —there's the shower, I'll ask them to bring you a change of clothes.
  —...

  "Come on, you'll be fine."

  "...(whispered)arigato...Tsukiyama-san."

  —Shuu, my name is Shuu, beautiful, (kissed the back of my ma) my beautiful (Tn)-chan.

  "ha...arigato Shuu-san."

  —When you're ready, they'll take you to the dining room, we'll have...(he took a deep breath) a lot to talk about.

  He caressed me for the last time before crossing the door, I was uncomfortable with the way he saw me, but at least I would be away from that woman; I heard a female voice informing me that the change of clothes was outside, I affirmed in response, immersing myself in it. water for a couple of minutes; I scrubbed my body for the last time and after drying myself I took what turned out to be a dress...

Too revealing for my liking, I ignored it seeing the marks on my chest, the grabbing of my arms, I was still anguished by the thought that Kaneki didn't save me, I put on a little makeup holding the tears of courage that were choking me.

  —bella-chan, you are wonderful, here, with this you will complete your adorable image so provocative.

  "...nani?,s...sh...Shuu-san."

  —Take a seat, onnegai, if you won't get tired.
  —...

  "Tell me about you beautiful."

  "...as she knows...y...I'm a ghoul, Leiko-san...m...kidnapped me and...Kaneki senpai n...no...didn't help me."

  —"Kaneki senpai" you say?
  I nodded—...ha..
  ...