SINCE I MEET YOU

WITHOUT IDENTITY

As soon as they saw my kagune they began to tremble, they backed up until they fell on their backs...

  —They are so drunk that I will give them an advantage... I will count to 3, the last one to stay will be my food, ichi...

  They had a hard time standing up, so they crawled towards a wall to help themselves, they didn't care who stayed, they just "ran" trying to escape...

  —how useless.
  I released my kagune—this was very easy, now, who will be the first?

  ...(here you will be in your mind with your ghoul side, like Kaneki with Rize)

  I didn't think you were such a frivolous

  I already said, I won't allow them to harm Kaneki...not because of me, I'll do whatever it takes to avoid it.

  do you really love him?

  ...yes...or not?...I don't know anymore, I don't want to go back to the same thing.

  How the same, have you already done this?

  Devouring another human being, no... not even killing him, I mean what I feel.

  Be more specific.

  I already fell in love once... or so I thought, he is my family, Kaneki knows it...

  Who is he"?

  Eiji-niisan, a brother, or stepbrother? It doesn't matter.

  You piqued my interest, (she sat down) continue.

It was a couple of years ago... many years actually: I was 8 when my parents told us that we had 3 other brothers, Eiji, Jun and Osamu, children that ottô-san had before he met okaâ-san; he was 12, Osamu... 21 I think, and Jun...

»18 yes I remember correctly, I really didn't care, I lived well with them, except Jun, for some reason she hated us without even knowing us.  Anyway, I discovered my feelings at... 15 years old, demo, he had another, when I had the courage to confess what I felt, he reciprocated me; it was already too late, he had another, with children...

»I suspect not They are his, but I can't do or say anything, he has come to appreciate them very much and... it would be a very hard blow.

  Do you think what he felt for you was true?

  Back then yes...now I don't know anymore, Osamu failed his marriage twice, Jun lost the love of his life on an important date, okaâ-san and ottô-san had lawsuits over nii-chan's mother, because of what I understood that...(I sighed) maybe love...is not for us.

  and why are you still alive?

  Because of them... they couldn't bear to know that I let myself be so easily defeated by this.

  Then you won't tell them about us.

  Iie, you wanted to be human, shin didn't?...now we can understand each other, you know what it's like to be human and I'm a ghoul.

  There are agents nearby, something good turned out that you were with Shuu.

  hai.

  I smiled crookedly seeing how they took over my body, I heard their screams to stop me, obviously I did not obey them, thanks to the shadow they did not identify me, I pushed myself again with my koukaku climbing the walls, *if I am going out I will need to be more in the shadows, a mask like Ayato and Kaneki, and...-I sniffed-iagh, clean clothes* once I made sure they weren't following me I went down where I thought it was a lonely alley, until I saw some stairs, out of curiosity I went down to a kind of local...



I saw my feet—art hysy studio...(entered)



—interesting...

  "Were you looking for something in particular?"

—nice tattoos...latin...you must know a lot about masks, which one do you recommend?
  —...a special one, I could do it, if you want.

  "Okay, when would you be ready?"

  —tomorrow.
  —Okay, demo, I would like any other for now.
  —which do you like?
  I walked—...this.

—ha...take a seat, I need some measurements...(sniffs)
  I shuddered—...etto...*what a weird guy*
  —Interesting, it's been a long time since I felt something like this... (he averted his face)
  —Etto, subette jun ban ni?/everything in order/
  —...ha...do you have allergies?
  —iie...
  —Would you like it to be made of rubber or metal?
  —...rubber...I think...
  —hmm, do you like that patch?
  —iie, demo, I have no choice.
  —Any special design?
  —whatever you want.
  —with or without mouth?
  —*I will need to eat and breathe*...with.
  —How many openings?
  —...one, I guess.
  —Ha...complete then.
  —ha...
  She sighed—I thought I would be the only one.
  —Kaneki?
  —Wow, you know him, that's all, you can come for her tomorrow.
  —hmm, arigato, demo... what do you know about Kaneki?

  "He's a great guy who's been through a lot on his own."

  —*alone?*...more specific, onnegai.
  —The poor guy had no idea what our world was like, until he was converted like you, his aromas are partly similar, demo, yours is stronger.
  —...*scents, huh?*
  —nani? Are you his girlfriend or something?
  —ha...or...it was.
  —...nani?, naniga waru desu ka?

  "I just finished with him."

  —nani? Knowing how strange he is, we didn't even believe he would have a girlfriend.
  —*Not even Touka?*...I have to put some affairs in order, demo...Will you keep a secret from me?
  —ha...
  —...I want to protect him, a woman forced me to look for him because she wants to avenge the death of her husband, demo, he didn't kill him, I'm sure the CCG killed him when Kaneki left him injured...

»he threatened to kill me yes I didn't give it to him, d..demo...aisuru/I love him/.
  —And what will you do then?
  —disappear for a while, while I discover how to save it and end it.
  —If you want that, you could stay here, if you can bear the shots, sirens and screams.
  —arigato, demo...he could find me, and I don't want to see him yet, besides, Tsukiyama wants him too.
  —Tsukiyama, you know him, huh?
  —*unfortunately* ha...he's my new master.
  —Here you will be safe, it never stops in these directions.
  —arigato, etto...
  —Uta, my name is Uta, onee-san.
  I nodded—(Yn),Takahashi-(Yn),(stretched out my hand)arigato,Uta-san.
  He accepted—hmm.
  —I don't have money, demo, I could work to pay.
  —shinpai shinaide, it's not like there's much to do, in the meantime, you could help me with your mask.
  —hai...(my stomach growled)
  —...you haven't eaten.
  Embarrassed—etto...iie.
  —behind the counter there is meat, take it.
  —demo...

  "I'll be fine, come on."

  —...arigato, (head down) ittadakimasu.

I saw a bottle with eyes, he offered me one, it was like trying sweets, I rubbed my lips before working, he showed me how he would make my mask, there was another one like Kaneki's, when he saw that he had my attention he gave it to me.  I put on some music finishing cleaning by turning in a chair and sang.