SINCE I MEET YOU

MISSIONS AT SCHOOL

I opened the door—...oh, Ayato-kun.
  He scratched the back of his neck —... ohayô, etto... they called a meeting and... etto... they made me bring you this. (He gave me a bag)
  I took it—arigato.
  —tch, atare rare tayôni, hurry up and... what is he doing here? (annoyed)
  I saw out of the corner of my eye—Kaneki, he arrived last night, it seems he'll be back with us.
  —... ha... in that case he raises it, he should also introduce himself.
  —hai...(walked) Ayato-kun, how are you doing with Hinami-chan?
  —...we're done, maybe you're right and she's not my ideal.
  —Jm, Ayato will arrive...she will arrive, dewamatta (see you).
  —sayonara.

  Seeing that I would spend some time resting, I went out the window on my way to my apartment, cleaned myself up, changed, dressed up with Aogiri's suit, a coat to cover what was shown of my body since that uniform was exaggerated...

  I liked how it looked with it, my nails had an impressive black color, I didn't remember having painted them, so I scratched until I noticed that it was my own blood that was taking the place of my nails; back at Aogiri I knew that Ayato was following me again , then I looked for how to sneak to the base, I entered through my bedroom window finding a Kaneki with his back sitting on the edge of the bed, I hugged him.

I whispered—ohayô. (I kissed his cheek)
  —ohayo, where do you come from?
  I showed my face—from home, I needed to clean up.
  —why do you wear that coat, isn't it something exaggerated?
  —iie, I use it for this... (I removed it)
  Surprised—...(Y/n)..chan.
  "I smiled"—you seem to like it.
  —where from...?
  —I suppose Eto had it, Ayato just handed it to me, I like it, I think it fits me well, (I took a turn) like a glove, even if it was somewhat laminated.
  —...this...
  —kawaii, you blush.
  He shook his head—etto... how did you sleep?
  —better, arigato gozaimasu, you are like a kind of protection for me, because...(I hugged him) only when I'm with you...can I sleep peacefully, you helped me more than anyone, maybe we don't know much about each other ,demo... that doesn't matter to me as long as I know we can count on each other's support.

  "...(Y/n)-chan..."

  —suki da io, Kaneki, (I separated) shinpai shinaide, I brought a pair of shorts and a skirt because I imagined what you would think of this one, I just wanted you to see it as it is.
  He kissed me —... suki da io.

  He took control of the kiss somewhat worried, even though he tried to hide it by grabbing my hips, he rose by the waist holding me tighter for a long time; we were in Mizakayi, I was surprised when I saw several of my classmates and teachers approaching, Eto was not present, but I ignored her, she had too much to think about to include her things.

  “I never believed that she was surrounded by ghouls my entire life."

  —I was thinking the same thing, demo, here we are.
  —Stop talking and concentrate, baka.
  —Calm down Kirishima, not even Hinami-chan is so upset anymore, by the way Ken, we should talk about her too.
  —...ha...

  "AGHHHHH!"

  —Kuso/shit/, they already started.
  I sighed—sonna/it can't be/,I thought it would be easy.
  —herd/doves/.
  —arukku/walking/.

Ken took my hand to get us closer, we were face to face with the recruits, I heard other steps around, it was enough to look at them to know that both he and Ayato and the others also noticed them, each one took a small group of the new members to attack, it was difficult for me to do it with other humans even to defend myself, but being part of a group that has other ideals very different from mine I had no choice, the blood flowed between my hands, splashed around, stained my clothes and hair taking me to my memories...

  FB…
  Onnee-chan, open your eyes.

  —iie,o..onnii-chan bleeds a lot...pray...

  Look at me, I'm fine, look at me.

  "It's not fair that you sacrifice yourself for me.

  “It's not a sacrifice, at least not compared to what you do for all of us.”

  —demo, you are punished.

  —It's not your fault, we all know what to do to avoid it.

  —aishiteru(i love you)onnii-chan.

  —aishitemasu(and I to you)...-chan.
  Resonant—(Tn)-chan.

  —onnii-chan, Kaneki.

  "(Yn)-chan...(Yo)-chan..."
  F.FB.
—(Yn)-chan!
  —oh, nande?

  "We have to go now."

  —I don't have your patch time, walking.
  —...(looked around)*all this...what happened here?  *
  —daijoubu?
  —I did this... me?
  —Not everything, that's how it is here, are you sure you want to continue?  (he hugged me from behind).

  "...h...ha..."

  —you're shaking a lot, (kissed my shoulder) what do you have?
  —*it's impossible...or not, what have I done, what's all this?*...nanimo,etto...s...just...(my head rumbled)ore,Ken...
  —I got you, (Y/n)-chan, what do you got?  Do you sweat a lot, daijôubu?

  "Ha...I just need to rest."

  —come on, arriving at the base you can rest.
  —ha...

  I lost my balance, my vision blurred, my throat felt dry and one last sound stunned my ears; I woke up with clean clothes, in the bedroom assigned to me, just as I felt thirsty, I was also invaded by hunger, when I sat up my stomach twisted.

  "AGHHH!"

  He threw the door—(Yn)-chan, daijôubu? (approached)
  I bit him—...
—...you need to clean up, you've been in bed for half a day.
  —...(distressed) Kaneki...gomenne...gomennasai, I didn't want to...
  —shinpai shinaide, it's normal for you to be hungry, come on, I brought you clean clothes.
  —...Kaneki...I had memories again: "there was a boy...probably my age, or older, bleeding, beaten, with a huge hole in his abdomen, I don't know what happened to him, demo, he was someone bad, someone who hurt him a lot along with others, older or younger, both boys and girls were in critical situations."
  She hugged me—it's over, it's just bad thoughts.
  —iie, Kaneki, these are memories, even though I don't hear when they say my name, that child, adults who looked like employees, always with class honorifics, "sensei, san, sama", only they called me "chan", I'm worried that you never hear my name, could it be... that they gave me another?

  "What do you think happened?"

  —...*if they changed my name, it's because they knew or know something, it must be really serious for them to try to change my memories, demo, nani?*someday I'll have to talk to ore no ryôshin, they must know something I don't and... I want to know why they hide it from me.
  —And if it's not that way?

  "Then I'll try to remember those children to find out."

  —demo, if you don't get it or... if it was for your own good.
  —Only in the future will we know.
  ...