Unknown Feelings (Fred Coury x Eric Brittingham)

37. Hanging On To Whatever Is Left

FRED'S POV:

AMES, IOWA, SEPTEMBER 9, 1986

"Mmm, I love you."

I said with a smile as I wrapped my arms tightly around Eric.

I felt him tightly his grip on me as he held me close to his body, my head against his chest.

We just had lunch and have been walking around all day exploring the city.

We were now just laying in bed and just enjoying some cuddles after we made out to the point we were in boxers.

I love cuddling up with him and I don't.

I mean, I obviously love it.

But I don't like that I'm close to Eric, allowing him to see the bruises.

He still doesn't know. As far as I know.

I turned around on my side, my back facing him as I felt Eric slowly pulling up the blanket to cover our bodies. We were both tired and I think we both quietly agreed that we need a nap.

"You ok, Doll?"

He asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine,"

I responded.

I really wasn't.

I was itching to get my hands on some more heroin.

I wanted it.

I needed it.

Ever since Derek introduced it to me, heroin is the only thing that's been on my mind.

I want it.

I need it.

Every single fucking second of the fucking day.

I felt Eric's fingertips, slowly go up my bare back.

I smiled a little.

The feeling of his fingertips all over my body.

His fingers were soft and gentle, yet rough and hard from playing base with them.

It was a mixed sensation and I loved it.

There were times when I didn't feel the need for heroin.

And most of the time, it was when I was with Eric.

There was still a part of me that was... 'normal'?

So I tried my best to hang on to him. Whatever is left of him, anything that the drug hasn't taken over and destroyed.

I felt Eric slowly move my hair away from my neck before placing a soft kiss near my sweet spot, followed by blowing a raspberry, making me laugh.

I quickly turned around to face him.

Eric was laughing too.

"Ha ha, very fun."

I said.

"Yeah."

He said as he calmed down a bit.

He placed his hand on my waist before pulling me closer, making me gasp at the sudden movement.

"How about a quick round?"

He asked seductively as he leaned closer.

"Hm, I would but I am tired."

I said.

He groaned a little.

"Since you really want sex, give me a blowjob."