The present feels so fake
It feels like it's a nightmare and I'm gonna wake up someday
As I sit down on my bed on a school night
And think about my life as an atmospheric unreleased song play in the background
The lights just turned off
Not because I switched them off but because there's no power in this country
Rolling blackouts on a day to day basis
Usually for 2 hours, sometimes 4 and sometimes 6
These rolling blackouts have been going on for as long as I remember
There's just a huge difference between what we deem as normal and what first world countries deem as normal
Rolling blackouts
An absent farther
Anger issues
Loneliness
Sadness
Being invisible
Not being heard
Not good enough to be considered as an option
Only at 16 and I've had suicidal thoughts
To the point that I overdosed on pills
Not that I still have suicidal thoughts
It's just that I've been through too much pain for a teenager to go through
I've been laughed at for 7 years just cause of how I speak
I've been to 2 schools and I've been treated the same
Saw friends come and go so many times that I think that there's something wrong with me
I don't know what is it with me but I just can't seem to keep a good female friendship, cause they always leave and I somehow fall in love with them
