The Ugly Duckling (PUBLISHED UNDER PSICOM)

Ugly #45

If I could go back turn back time

I'll make everything right

And you would still be mine

I've thought of different scenarios, things that could have happened if I wasn't too scared and stupid, and several what ifs that made my mind explode. I've already made a list of the things that I would change if I had the power to turn back time, what I'd give to erase my mistakes... but altering the past isn't remotely possible.

Baby, I've been thinking about you lately

Won't you come over and save me

from my memories

There's never been a single second that Sage wasn't in my mind. He never left. He occupied all of my thoughts that I had no room for anything or anyone else. I kept on remembering the times when things were light and easy, those days when I was still the ugly duckling that he despised with an understandable reason, and those moments when I saw pain splashed on his face. Every time I think of him, I hurt.

Yeah, and I might sound crazy

But baby if you could only see me

cause I wish you were here badly

But I know we can't-

My forehead creased when I realized the song that was blaring near my ear. I turned my head to see where the annoying music was coming from and I was welcomed with a hand holding a phone.

"Luke Dashiel!" sigaw ko nang makita ko ang kalahating gago na si Luke. Hawak-hawak niya ang phone ko habang pinapatugtog ang kanta ni Krissy malapit sa aking tenga.

Tinapik ko ang kamay niya palayo sa gilid ng mukha ko at napahalakhak si kalahati sa kalokohan niya. "What? Tinutulungan lang kita para mas dama mo yung moment."

"Tinutulungan my ass! Amina nga yan!" inagaw ko ang phone mula sa kamay niya at nakasimangot na pinatay ang malungkot at nakakainis na kanta. I clicked the lock button before scowling at Luke. "Paano mo ba nalaman ang password ko?"

"Yung 7243 ba? E diba pangal-" nanlalaki ang mga mata na inangat ko ang kamay at tinampal sa bibig ni Luke bago niya pa maituloy ang sasabihin niya. Namumula ang mukha at tenga ko. Nararamdaman ko yun.

"Buttface ka talaga! Bakit mo sasabihin!" lumingon-lingon ako sa paligid habang sinasabi iyon dahil baka may ibang nakarinig kahit na alam ko naman na walang may pakialam dahil nasa mall kami.

"What? You were the one who asked me the question."

Tinanggal ko ang kamay ko mula sa bibig niya at binigyan siya ng madilim na tingin. "Kapag ba tinanong kita kung ano meron sa inyo ni Avis sasagutin mo rin?"

The smug face on Luke's face disappeared and his expression turned cold. His silence made me raise a brow and it was my turn to be smug. I grinned at him. "Ano? Taob ka ngayon."

Luke rolled his eyes. "Shut up." he mumbled quietly and the grin on my face didn't drop.

I was thankful that Luke and I were very okay now. Medyo nagalit kasi siya sa akin nang sinabi ko sa kanya ang tungkol sa plano ko kay Sage bago mangyari ang gabing iyon. He said I was stubborn because I wouldn't listen to him and I said a few words too before he finally walked out.

Pagkatapos ng pag-uusap namin ni Avis kagabi ay humingi ako ng sorry kay Luke sa mga sinabi ko at sa hindi ko pakikinig sa kanya. Hindi naman ako nahirapan na suyuin si Luke. Then I told about my brilliant plan.

I told him how I was going to insert myself to Sage's life again. I was positive that my plan would work because it was the same thing that I did before. Tama si Dee. Sage hated me back when I was still trying to make him fall for me. Ano ba ang kaibahan ngayon?