In The Arms Of A Doll Collector (BENZ SERIES I)

Wakas (Ang Pang huli)

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Grand Wedding

"Just, let me help you, okay!?" Damien aggressively said. He's not really asking. He wants me to agree. Matapos nang mangyaring panghihimasok ng mga tauhan ni Jenna sa bahay at pagpatay kay Mr. Velasquez ay kailangan kong ilayo ang sarili kay Cresia. It's for her safety. Ako naman talaga ang habol ni Jenna. I didn't do what she wants, to marry her daughter — Hailey.

Things have been very different when I was with her. I know I hurt her in different ways. I make her feel worst, afraid and even make her cry. I make her feel I was controlling her life. I make her feel she has no right to decide for herself. But that's not what I want to do. That's not what I want her to think but that's what happened.

I was just really-really comfortable when she's around so I kidnapped her twice. Ang ginagawa niyang pag-aalaga sa ibang manika at kay Uriel, ibang iba. It feels like she was also taking care of me. And the only thing to save her from Lando is to kidnapped her. Hindi ko aakalain na gugustuhin ko siyang itago kasama ako sa madilim na bahay na 'yon. Pero kung hindi ba ako nagpakita noong gabing 'yon, anong mangyayari? That freak Lando will just make it worst. At hindi ko 'yon kayang makita. Ang dapat kong pagtatago sa likod ni Uriel ay hindi tumagal. I need to show myself to save her.

I didn't tell her who my private doctor is. I don't want her to judge me even more if she learned I lied. I don't have a private doctor. The doctor is me. The one I recorded. I don't want her to leave and for her to stay, I made an excuse. I think of something that will make her not leave me. That, what if I impregnate her, she will stay.

"Here." Inabot sa akin ni Damien ang isang envelope na naglalaman ng genital test result. "Hailey was raped before killed by her ex-boyfriend. I know Jenna thinks we did it."

Halos mayupi ko ang buong papel sa galit. Fucking ex boyfriend! He did too much! Why did he kill her!?

"We need to find the other spy if Jenna and one speak how many were left."

I just nod. Hindi ko aakalain na hahantong ako sa ganito. Na kahit papa-ano natutunan kong kontrolin ang sarili pakonti-konti. Cresia did helped a lot in making me sane. I always tell myself that if I lose insanity again, there's a possibility that I can hurt Cresia. Kaya naman pilit kong itinutuwid ang sarili sa mga bagay na alam kong maka kapag pa trigger sa akin. Pilit kong iniisip ang babaeng nagtyaga sa akin. And it works. I don't know how.

"Coffee?" Damien offered. Tinanggap ko ito. Naaalala ko pa rin ang inis at selos ko sa kanya. Naalala ko rin ang ginawa ni Cresia na pakikipagkita sa kanya kahit na nagbihis pa ito ng pambabae. Lahat iyon alam ko. But I pretend like I didn't know it. Because that's one way to help me teach myself that Cresia needs her own freedom. Kung tatagal lang ako sa pagkontrol ng buhay niya, tatagal rin siya sa gawaing itatago niya ang katotohanan sa akin kaya hinayaan ko silang dalawa.

"Thanks," I said. Now that most of the time, I am sane. I can already remember the past to learn from it and not to feel worst or jealous about anyone. On how he tried to help me, play with me, and fight for me. He does not want the Benz. He only listens to Dad so he'll never get mad. He only tried his best. While I was the love sucker, attention seeker kid. He didn't do anything kaya dapat hindi ako magalit.