euneirophrenia* kozume k.

Xenization,, 5

Xenization; the act of existing as a stranger.

M/n never really considered himself a stranger. He was liked by most people, and he was able to change how he acted to fit someone else's personality, and he had always been told his kind, but straightforward personality was charming.

All of his life, he had been praised for being him, but he never understood it. He never understood why he was amazing for just acting like himself? He didn't save the world, he didn't create famous paintings, and he doesn't cure people of sickness.

He found himself unable to create deeper bonds with people because of the pedestal they all collectively put him on. But with Kenma, after only knowing him a day and a half, he's realized that he doesn't have to put on his perfect student, good boy act. Oddly enough, he finds himself grinning wider when Kenma grimaces at him, or rolls his eyes at something he does.

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"You're really weird, you know that?"
Kenma blinked, looking up at you with furrowed eyebrows and a small grimace. "What?"

"You're weird. You're so.. I don't know how to put it." Kenma looked at you disgustedly, letting his eyes scan you up and down. "You're one to talk.." He muttered quietly. You grinned widely, biting your lip to stop yourself from laughing.
"I don't mean it like that, you're weird because you hate me, I like that."

Kenma stared at you blankly, and you knew he was thinking something like, 'is this bitch for real?'
You giggled, moving your hair away from your face. "Many people at home think of me oddly.. they find me amazing," you flailed your arms out, sighing loudly. "But i'm not amazing. I'm a regular guy! And I love meeting new people because they don't think of me so highly, but then they start to think i'm smart, and then they find out I have manners, which EVERYONE should have!"

You dragged your hands down your face, sighing. You sat with your head down, before you heard Kenma giggle.

"I think if you showed them this side of you, they'd like you a little less." You shot your head up, leaning closer to him, making him lean back.

"You laughed! Oh my gawd that was cu-," you leaned back, looking at him suspiciously. "What is that supposed to mean?"

"I'm saying, do you act uptight? Do you act like your well mannered and perfect or do you show them this reckless behavior?" He rolled his eyes at having to explain himself, twirling a piece of grass in between his fingers.

"Well no.. but I also don't want to ruin my reputation!"

Kenma blanked at this, weren't you just talking about how you didn't like it? He sighed in disappointment, shaking his head.

You smiled at him, standing up before pulling him up too, listening to him shout, smacking your hand away from him.

"Listen, I'm glad you're here right now."

"I have no other choice."

"Yeah, but here, here. With me."

You reached for his hand, grazing your fingers against him before he moved it away slightly, playing with his fingers. Your smile dimmed a little, but you understood. He's still warming up to you. You're just grateful he's done this much. You had a feeling he's not one to talk a lot, and yet he responds to you with genuine questions and answers.

"Thank you, Kenma." You felt your hand go fuzzy, realizing you'd soon hear the ring of your morning alarm. You hesitated for a minute, biting onto your lip and picking at the skin around your fingernails.

"I.. would you ever want to meet me ? Like, really meet me?"

You watched him look up at you, before averting his gaze somewhere else.

"I don't know.." Isn't this enough? Is what he wanted to say. This was almost too much for him, but he knew you wanted a soulmate. Of course you'd be dissatisfied with just this. He shook his head, "I don't know."

You nodded, a sad but understanding look on your face, and he looked at you one more time, his heart hurting as he woke up.

He was becoming further connected to you, and he didn't know if he liked it.

a/n; hi babes, i've been super super busy </3 and i also forgot wattpad existed for a little bit. im sorry this chapter is so short, but im SO excited and grateful for the love this book is getting! love my kozume lovers. also, can someone tell me if his first name is kenma or kozume ⁉️ google doesnt help much.