And It Was All Fate

LILY'S STORY 28

LILY'S POV

When she asked me what happened to me I didn't know how to answer her . I just felt terrified and filthy . And no matter what I do I was unable to clean myself properly . It was a torture ...A torture that I had to endure . I always wonder why he did that to me . At first when he even offered me a candy , he seemed like a nice person but then then I don't know what happened to him ?

Why did he turn into a monster like the ones they show in horror movies ? Although I told my mother and father about how that man looked and he was sent to jail ; I was still scared that he will come back . He was always in me dreams hurting me again and again ...I always feared that my dreams will come true .

But what should I say ? How should I explain it to her : what happened ? ; when I don't even know myself . I don't know why my mom was crying every or why my father was angry and frustrated, everytime they say me . I don't know? So I cried ....I cried loudly . Loudly enough to let my pain wash away . Loud enough to let me forget about all the worries ...When I opened my eyes I was hugging someone .

I wanted to push away but then I saw who was holding me .Its Serena ....Serena is holding me . The person who hates to people touching her was holding me . The disgust I feel when people touch me washed away as I lie in her arms for a very long time ...Feeling safe ...

After crying for a long time . My throat was try . And unconsciously spoke .... " Water ..." . At first , Serena was startled when she looked at me with her large grey eyes then she realised that I wanted water . She first released me from her hold and I moved away from her , still feeling her warmth all over my cold body.

She got down to fetch water but she didn't return for a long time which made me anxious ...Anxious enough to sit down in the corner of my room and hugging my legs which turned me into a ball . I always think that if I do that I will be a ball and non one will hurt me .

Serena came back with the glass of water but I never allowed her to go. We slept together , ate together and evn went to bathroom together . Actually I forced her to do all those things . She just obediently followed me around .

After one week we went to school...But unlike before I never talked with anyone and I never played . I ate a lot . I was turing into a big ball like a snowman . Everyone in the class started to laugh at me .

One day , exactly after one year of the incident Serena fell ill and I had to go school alone . Normally I would have stayed home with her but that day I decided to go to school alone . I mustered up my courage . Albeit mother wanted me stay at home...I decided to go...But when I reached at school bullying got worst than before. Someone snatched my bag and threw out of the window. Then they all told teacher that I threw my bag by myself. I was scolded by the teacher.

They also glued my chair and gutted my hair. I don't understand why they find it funny when I am crying. I want to cry and fight but no matter what I am hopeless . I was unable to fight that man and I am unable to fight against them . I am pathetic I know . Pathetic for always crying .

Then next day , Serena was alright . Hence she came to school with me . I again felt safe and protected . She fought with everyone who wanted to harm me . One day ,she even slapped a teacher who made me cry . Teachers wanted to separate us . But we never allowed them .We always stayed together .

Then on my 14th birthday I found something other than Serena which could become meaning of my life , comedy . I saw Mr Bean and laughed so much that I forgot everything . Then I began to follow other comedians . One day a thought came to my mind ...How great it would be to work for making people happy . I wanted to do that ...I wanted to become a stand-up comedian ...

When I told mom and dad about my dream both of them laughed at me . But after I started rehearsing they got worried for me . They tried to convince me that it was a stupid job but I didn't give up since it was my dream and it will always be my dream . A dream which brought light into my dark world .

PRESENT DAY :
It has been a week since Serena left this house . It felt so empty without her . I was scared ...Scared of being alone once again but I know it will be better . Besides I can call her anytime I want , I can see her at school despite the fact that I am jealous that she is getting closer to that quiet girl . Especially since I hate that girl for some reason .

I don't know why actually ever since I saw her first I just can't stand her . I think she looks down on everyone . She never cares about others but everyone else care about her . Sam is also a quiet person but he also cares about others . He is a kind boy . But Myra she doesn't ...She never cares about anyone . She doesn't even try to show some sympathy . Anyway , it was still bearable when we met occasionally but now Serena is working with her . I am damn sure that she won't even care about her even though I requested her to do so.

God ! I don't know what happened to me back then I just barged into the hospital two times that day , I cried in front of that annoying girl who I hate so much . Its so embarrassing . I want to kill myself . I have to forget that embarrassing incident in order to sleep peacefully .

Anyway , I am going to get back at that annoying girl for taking that Serena away from me ....