And It Was All Fate

NOTHING IMPORTANT(38)

When we feel that our lives are useless . When we think that this world is nothing but useless struggle to survive. We lose our hope to live . We feel that our existence has no meaning . All these feelings are existential crisis.

I don't know why I am searching this thing on internet in the middle of night . But suddenly I wanted to do this . Because instead of sleeping I am wondering if my life holds any meaning or not . Human brain is weird . Weird enough to make you go crazy . Weird enough to make you sad and happy at the same time . Weird enough to make you hopeful as well as hopeless ....

IN THE MORNING :
" Myra , get up ...", Serena .

" Why ? ", I asked .

" Because we have to go to school ..." , Serena .

" Five more minutes . ", I said .

" Not a minute more . ", Serena .

No man ....I wish I could sleep forever . I wonder if it could happen . Maybe when I will die it will happen . Whatever ...

First I have to shower . I hate taking off my clothes especially in this cold winter . Its like you are taking away your own warmth one by one or little by little . I hate this feeling .
Finally , its over . I feel better after taking shower . Let us see , first my physiotherapist Emily will be hear . Well , she is a nice woman. A very nice woman . I actually like her a lot . She makes me feel comfortable . And its like she loves her job a lot .

AFTER AN HOUR : Physiotherapy is done . Now I have to eat breakfast with my family which means that I have to tolerate my father for 30 minutes .

" Darling , your daughter is here . ", my dad as I sat on the chair of dinning table besides my mom .

" What do you mean ? She is also your daughter , Rishaan ", mom.

" Yeah , unfortunately ..., " dad .

" Believe me I am not ecstatic about this fact either . ", I retorted .

" Who taught this word ? I thought you are an idiot but it seems like you are learning well . Maybe you will soon be trainable idiot ..." , dad snickering .

" Rishaan ! ", my mom .

" Believe me mom . Whatever the old man says I don't mind . I already know that he is insecure and very pitiful ..." , I said .

" Enough ! Both of you eat your food ..." , mom with a dangerous face .

Despite of our all differences , dad and me knew that if we don't agree with her we will be in huge trouble . Hence we quietly ate our breakfast .

I am going to school with Serena . She is driving me to school . I can't get used to it .

" You know you don't have to walk me to the class ..." , I told Serena .

" I have to ...I don't want you to get bullied ....I don't want to be irresponsible bodyguard ...." , Serena .

" Yeah , right ... " , I scoffed .

Now I have to sit down . Oh , I forgot about Amara . She is a wierd girl . A very weird one . Oh there she is and guess what ? She is again reading her book . She looks so innocent with . Her features are soft . If I hadn't seen her yesterday I would have thought that she is a kind girl .

" Hi , good morning . ", Amara .

" Yeah , good morning . ", I said .

Yeah , totally confusing . The way she looks like now ...Man , I can't even say . She seems like she can't even kill a mosquito .

" Hello ? Myra , you okay ? ", Amara smiling .

" What ? " , I asked .

" You were staring at me . ", Amara as she shook her head .

Now its confirmed , ' FACE IS NOT THE INDEX OF MIND ...I knew it ! I am very smart .

After a while our classes started and Amara started her idiotic behaviour once again .

" Sir , I know plasma and bose Einstine condensate are other two states of matter . But there are many other states of matter ..." Amara .

Then in Maths class :

" I know sir , this is a trapezium ...", Amara .

Come on , everyone knows that .

In English class :

" Its an Alliteration ...", Amara .

I am going to kill myself .

Finally , my classes are over . I can quietly go home now .

And as always Serena was waiting for me . I was walking with Serena quietly when a ball came towards my direction but Serena stopped it quickly with her bare hands right before it can hit me . Thank God .

" Sorry ..." some boy with a smile ..." But you should have seen your face ...."

I did't say anything to him while Serena began to glare at him dangerously . Wow , she looks terrifying . Jaw clenched , eyes squinted and nose flared . If looks could kill then she would have done it already .

" I ....I am sorry. " , the boy said and left quietly .

Then we again started moving quietly towards the parking lot .

" Did you talk with Lily today ? ", I asked .

" No , I didn't ...", Serena .

" You should otherwise she will die out of anxiety ..." , I said .

She didn't say anything and took out her phone to call Lily .

" Lily , where are you ? " , Serena talking with Lily on phone ..." Ok I will ask her ..."

" She wants to come to your house . Is it fine ? ", Serena asked me .

" Yeah , sure ...",I said .

" Okay , I will message her . ", Serena .

AT HOME :

After eating something I began to complete my homework with Serena .

" May I come in ? " , Lily .

" No you can't ..." , I said playfully .

But the way she is looking at me . I don't think I should have played .Geez , both her and Serena give same dangerous look .

" Hi ..." Lily .

While Serena just nodded .

" Come on , give me a hug ... ", Lily .

" Stop behaving like a child ....", Serena .

" But I am still a child ...", Lily in a childish voice .

Serena was sitting on a chair Lily came closer to Serena and embraced her .

" Say that you love me ...", Lily with a pout .😙😙😙😙

" I don't lie ...", Serena deadpanned .

" I miss you so much meanie ...", Lily .

" We see each other everyday at school . ", Serena .

" But it's not enough . We don' t even have same classes ....", Lily .

After a while Lily sat on my bed and started chatting about things .

" You know what happened to Elena . I heard that she is eloped with her boyfriend and the topper of our old class she dropped out of the school ...Mom said that aunt Merry is marrying once again. " , Lily rants .

When I thought that Lily talks a lot that was an understatement . A real understatement .