5. anger

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The night passed, but the only thing i could think about was thinking what my mother knew.

The warm night wind blew thru my hair. With the night wave sounds on the background i looked at the stars, my siblings were already asleep.

I was angry at myself, i shouldn't even have started a conversation with him at all, that way it wouldnt led to this. I had to reject him. I had to leave him alone. I had to let him go.

I decided i would break the friendship tomorrow, he had to reject me so i could move on.

A spark, no. I didn't want a spark. At this point i would rather marry my ugly older brother than him. Or even someone else.

I was so angry at myself i couldn't sleep.

But a thought came up in me..

What if i check if he is awake, maybe i can do it already now so i can actually sleep.

I decided it would be better for me, i slowly stood up out my bed trying to not make a single sound to wake my sibling up.

I walked to their house, i also walked past my loud snore neighbour, oh eywa he could snore loud as fuck.

Within no time i was at his tent, i looked to check.. but i could only see his parents and siblings, but not.... Him?

"What are you doing here?" I heard a voice say behind me, i exactly knew who was standing behind me.

"Neteyam, we over, we can't be friends." I said, not even a "hi! How are you doing Neteyam?" .

His eyes wided open as i said that. I walked to the beach to clear my head.
He of coarse followed me, "stop following me Neteyam. We are not friends." I said.
"Wait up." He answered.

I arrived at the beach and took a moment to look at the bright stars and the planets. It was so beautiful.
Until he grabbed my arm and.... Kissed me.

I accepted it.

I held his face with my hands as his hands held my waist.

We kissed for a good minute, until i really realized what i was doing.

I pushed him away and held myself, as i said :" we can't...".
"We can" he said.

"No... We really can't! Neteyam i can't live like this." I said, probably never spoke out english so fluently ever before.
"Well, please say it to me, what did i do wrong?" He asked me while holding my shoulder and looking deep into my eyes.
"You don't do wrong, you... You... No... I can't say." I said, i was almost going to say i was in love with him. But after all what happened, i don't know if i am or if i am not..
"Please y/n say it." He asked nicely while slightly grabbing my cheek.
"I can't its to early." I said, because it was.

I walked away after that, i didn't want for my own good to see behind my back how he is doing.

I went into my bed and tried my best falling asleep..



(Sorry that this was a short chapter, there will be upcoming longer ones!)

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