Just Another Championship - The Battle for Wolff | Max Verstappen #2

Comforting Conversations

When I got home I quietly took myself straight off to my bedroom. I really didn't have it in me to have a conversation with anyone and I just needed some alone time to really take in the day. I laid on my bed staring at the picture of the scan. I was filled with so many different emotions that I wasn't sure whether I should be happy or not. I really didn't know how to feel. I was so lost in thought when there was a gentle knocking at my bedroom door. I quickly put the scan photo in the draw next to my bed and pulled the covers over me. "Come in" I called to whoever it was. Luckily it was Susie. She opened the door slowly, she seemed very cautious about coming in which made me wonder if something bad had happened, she sheepishly smiled at me as she came to sit next to me on the bed. I could tell there was something she wanted to say but she was clearly hesitant. We sat there silently for a brief moment until she finally spoke. "how far along are you" she asked gently giving me a sympathetic smile. I felt so panicked that I really didn't know what to say I just looked at her completely surprised. How could she possibly know? All I could think was that Emilia must have said something to her. "I know you darling and it's starting to show a little" she said glancing down quickly at my stomach, where I had unconsciously placed my hand. I couldn't help but start crying. "Oh sweetheart" Susie pulled me in and hugged me.

I explained everything to Susie, she didn't say a word and just listened to every word not passing any judgement at all. It felt nice to be able to offload on someone that didn't have an opinion about what I should and shouldn't do. "And do you want to keep the baby?" I hesitated for a moment really thinking about what i really wanted to do. The more I thought about it the more I realised I knew exactly what I wanted I just wouldn't allow myself to accept it and now was the time to just go with how I really felt. "Yes but what if I don't know how to be a mum" I replied. Susie smiled faintly and squeezed my hand. "You'll learn" Susie always had a way of making things feel like everything was going to be okay.
I felt so embarrassed telling Susie that I didn't know whether Max or Charles was the father even though I knew she would never judge me in that way. Susie explained how I could find out who the father was before I had the baby. "But what if it's not the answer i want" Susie's eyes widened as what i said sunk in. For the first time I was really accepting how I felt about this baby. Yes I wanted to keep this baby but the reality was I wanted nothing more then for it to be Max's. "Have you and Max discussed this?" I looked at her bemused, how did she know that's who I was talking about. "Kaycee come on, everyone can see how much you both still love each other" Susie was right about a lot of things but I couldn't help but think she was wrong about this. Max was just being supportive because he felt like he had to not because he genuinely wanted to and if the baby wasn't his that would definitely change.

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Being able to offload how I was really feeling with Susie really did make me feel so much better. She helped me to arrange for the tests to be done so I could find out who the father was. Max instantly agreed to do the test, whereas, Charles was a completely different story. He'd blocked me on everything and completely shut me out. Even when Emilia tried to contact him he wouldn't even respond. It was pretty evident he wanted absolutely nothing to do with me or this baby. To everyone else I put on a brave face and acted as if it didn't bother me at all but it did hurt seeing how cold hearted he was about the whole thing. I genuinely didn't even know that side of him existed let alone think that he would treat me this way. On top of that I couldn't deny that I was extremely anxious having to wait for the results to come back, especially knowing that they would be due back when everyone would be in Austin. I had to make a choice to either stay in Monaco on my own and find out alone or go to Austin with everyone else.