My Senior High First Love

XXXXV. Won't Turn Back (Abby)

I hopped in the car while basking the Manila air.

Welcome back me!!!!!

after months sa Amsterdam. I'm finally backk.. Ackkkkk..

I rolled up the window of Mom's Car after awhile nang kakatingin sa Manila. Its December pero mainit parin, well thats Philippines.

"Hows your flight anak, i bet its bumpy kasi its winter na"

"No naman Mommy" i smiled

"So kamusta naman ang Amsterdam. Hows school? Did you have a hard time adjusting there"

"Actually its not bad Mom. Its kinda the same in a way dito. Schools fine and uhmm yeah thats... Yeah" Mom just stared at me from the rearview mirror. Nagiwas nalang ako ng tingin.

"Nga pala, your Dad's very excited to see you"

"Ahh" i just nod and replied.

Yeah, really I'm excited to come home but theres this gnawing pain and I fully aware whats causing this.

Mavie and I Broke up.. Its been couple of months when we decided to end it. But the pain's still there. Andyan parin.

For the past months I've been occupying myself not to think or feel but I guess di parin humuhupa ang sakit. It was a fast break up, ni hindi nga sya nagdisagree.

Maybe because she really fell out of love, maybe because it was hard for her .. Well maybe for the both of us. I admit, it was hard juggling school, her and my family who in that state was in chaos pa kasi Dad had a heartattack while si kuya has uhmmm.. Crisis. It's just..

I really thought that Mav... She would never do that.

But then, I guess I'm wrong.

---Flashback---

"Huh" here it is...

1...2..3.. As I count the seconds while the other line from the screen turned from "calling" to Mavie's face.

Ito na.. She appeared on the screen wearing a cap.

I can't find the words to say.. Nakayuko lang sya ..

"Mav"

"...... "

Mav.. please don't make me the bad guy na manunumbat Mav.

I guess wala atang uunang magsasalita Hayyyy, Do I really need to be the first to talk Mav? Guess I have no choice 'cause you're not talking.

"Mav--" "Abb--" i guess we both decided to talk kaya nagsabay pa kami.

"I'm sorry" its barely a whisper ..
I'm sorry for what Mav? For lying to me, for cheating.. Please tell me.. Is it true?

"Is it because of her?"

"..... "

"Is it because sakanya na why you seemed so cold to me? Or Is it because of your Mom Mav? Maiintindihan naman kita Mavie eh. I know what your going through right now"

"........."

"Tell me Mav sawa ka na ba? Napagod ka na ba thats why you did that?" "triny naman natin ah, we made it work for a couple of months. What happened to us Mav?" And this time I can't hold back my tears.

I have given her all the reason na thats been playing and going through my mind. But hindi parin sya nagsasalita and nakayuko lang ito, and the thing is I'm watching her crying in front of me. Tell me Mav, how did we end up like this?

Gusto kitang yakapin, Mahal. Please sabihin mo lang na walang nangyari, na di totoo ang sinabi ni Cha. Just tell me you still Love Me. Na okay pa tayo. Kasi ako Mahal na Mahal kita, na kahit sabihin ng iba na wala na. Na may iba kana. Na magiging tanga ako if I forgive you, itatry ko unawain. Maybe may reason ka.