Little daydream

Insecurities

Little: Dream
Cg: Sapnap
Big: Punz

Tw/Cws: Self-doubt, Not censored cursing, Various crying scenes, Insecurities.

Plot: Dream is feeling insecure about his new coping mechanism, thankfully he has Sapnap to help him through it.

The fluff is almost at the end of the chapter-

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Dream has always been insecure of himself. Is he too awkward? Is his voice pitchy? Did that sound weird? Do people understand him when he speaks? Is he too energetic? Is he not energetic enough?

Those are daily questions that he asks himself. He has gotten used to the questions swarming around his head and he has learned to calm himself before.

But, due to the new coping mechanism he's taken up, he now has new questions and no answers. Now, because of his adhd, Dream despises change. And this is a whole lot of change.

Is he too tall to be a little? Does he have to look a certain way? Does he have to like certain things? Does he have to be regressed all the time and is it bad if he is? What if he can't be small sometimes?

He feels that he doesn't fit the categories or the stereotypes and he hates it. He wants to be small enough to be held and he wants to look like most regressors and he wants to regress a lot but he doesn't at the same time.

It's extremely frustrating, and sometimes he can't handle it.

Which leads him to where he is now.

Dream is currently sitting on his bed with the light off and his head in between his knees. He's desperately trying to force his headspace away.

He feels that since he was small yesterday, he doesn't need to be small today. He needs to work and he needs to talk to his friends and he can't do that while being a baby at the same time.

Dream whines in frustration when he notices it isn't working. His head hurts and his neck is sore from the position he's in.

"Dream?" Punzs voice is muffled due to the locked door, blocking him from entering the room. "Dream, it's been three hours, come out please? It's twelve in the morning." Punz knocks on the door once again, the loud noise making Dreams head pound with pain.

"Nuh uh." Is the only response that Punz is given. "C'mon Dreamie, Sap wants to talk to you."

Dream stands up, very clearly annoyed, the sudden movement making him wince at his now migraine.

He opens the door and trudges out into the hallway, squinting his eyes as the bright light hurts his head more.

"What?" Punz gives Dream a look at his tone and grabs his hand. "Come, Sap wants to see you." Dream lets himself be dragged to Sapnaps room, holding off his headspace is becoming unbearable especially because he's about to see his caregiver.

"Dream? Come in." Sapnap responds as his door is knocked on lightly.

"What do ya need me for? I gotta-." Drean is cut off by Sapnap shushing him.

"Dream, I know you're not doing anything in your room, come here." Sapnap shuts his PC off and spins around in his chair to face the blond.

Dream hesitantly walks to Sapnap and avoids eye contact.

"What's wrong Dream? We haven't talked in hours and you look like shit, have you been sleeping?" Sapnap gently places his hand on Dreams arm but removes it when Dream flinches at the touch.

"Nothing, I just have a headache." Dream crosses his arms and looks at the floor. "Do you need painkillers? How much does it hurt?" Sapnap worriedly asks as he stands up.