We are standing inside the OR. Airport, Ro, and I are crying hysterically while holding onto each other her husband and daughter are watching us.
"Goodbye, auntie Hlehle."
Bokang says after I hug her and her father.
"Goodbye, Boks, Aunt Hlehle loves you, ok." Bokang nods and smiles sweetly at me as I kiss her cheeks.
"Kana, don't forget that I will always be there when you need me, I love you, Sobahle, and you will always be like my little sister. Take care and be safe."
She says while hugging me tightly before letting go.
"Thank you for always being there for me, Tirelo. I will always love you, sis."
I will always love Ro, she became my home away from home, she 6 I know she is going to say something stupid.
"Bona, handsome is going to fall in love with very soon kana wena o montle, Mma."
she says, and we laugh before my boarding gate is announced to be open, I wave as they watch me leave. Ro has such a beautiful family they look so cute together.
I landed a few minutes ago and I'm on my way to Bukhosi's house he sent one of the guys who were with him the first time I saw him and I guess he is his security guard/driver, this man is so serious he addresses me formerly unlike bab'Gumede who was very friendly and sweet.
I'm looking outside the window admiring the beauty of this place, but I can't help myself and think about what I'm getting myself into.
"Sawubona Sobahle."
Bukhosi says walking towards me the moment I enter the house.
"Sawubona Bukhosi."
I greet back feeling shy now that he decided to stand too close to me his cologne smells amazing.
"Do you want to go upstairs to your room and refresh or do you want to eat first?"
"I'll go and refresh and then come eat after."
I say and he nods and drags my two large luggage bags upstairs and I just take my handbag and follow him.
Being in this house always feels like a dream and now I'm going to live here for 13 months it feels surreal this mansion takes my breath I can't wait to give myself a tour around the house and the yard.
I feel refreshed now because I took a very relaxing bath again just like the first time I came here, Bukhosi is talking on the phone to his father I guess because he keeps referring to the whoever he is talking to as baba and mageba. This man is handsome his lazy hazel brown eyes look mhm they are so sexy and for the first time I see his taunt muscles clearly because he is wearing a short sleeved t-shirt, trackpants and pair of sneakers he looks so relaxed.
"Sorry for keeping you waiting, I was checking on uMa but Bayede hijacked our conversations to give me a lecture, imagine uBaba thinks ngingu Melokuhle yazi."
He says after getting off the phone
"Maybe you and your brother behave similarly."
I say to tease him and he chuckles, I haven't had many interactions with him and his brother but you can just tell they behave differently.
"How was your flight" asks dishing up for himself from the food layed out on the table
"It was fine but I think I need to nap for while." I yawning and I also start dishing up for myself.
"Yeah you should rest, so are going to do this through the IVF process which might take longer or the traditional way which will be more fast ?"
he asks and I choke from food, Bukhosi wants to sleep with me.
"Mhhmm.. the thing is Bukhosi I have never been with a man before."
"Why are you part of the LGBT community?"
I shake my head no, and he catches on, he looks very shocked.
I know I have always been open to the whole surrogacy, adoption and selling eggs in fact the whole fertility process but with him it feel like, I did things hastily don't get me wrong, I don't regret leaving my job and life in joburg for this but it feels like with Bukhosi I don't think I just do.
"MaZungu, you mean usayi tshitshi ?"
He asks, his tone sounding somewhat cold, and I just nod while looking down.
"When were you planning to tell me, you do know that ubuntombi is something very important in my culture and just I can't do you like that."
He says, Now speaking softly.
"I'm sorry, I thought that since we were going to the whole thing through IVF, ubuntombi bami wasn't such a big deal."
"Even if it means losing your virginity, because uyazi ukuthi even if we don't have sex at the end your virginity hymn is gonna break when you give birth?"
He questions clearly amused by my confession.
And we both know that in South Africa, you have to have given birth before in order for you to become a surrogate, meaning we are breaking the law because I have never been pregnant before but this man seems to know what he is doing.
"The virginity hymn thing is just a myth to me, maybe it's because angizange nga hlolwa plus I just want to help you with this process because you asked."
I have always thought of selling my eggs, having kids in this economy was not part of my plans I mean the salary I earned could only sustain my lifestyle and not to the fullest because I still helped around at home it was no much but it made a difference.
He holds my hands, gently looks into my eyes, and I get this unexplainable feeling in my stomach.
"Ngiya kuzwa futhi ngiyabonga kodwa your first time should be romantic and gentle with someone who loves you not with the intention of impregnanting you."
he says softly, and I keep quiet, not knowing what to say.
