One sided // jakehoon

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jake raised his eyebrows at sunghoon with a blank expression on his face, he was confused for sure.
he didn't even really process what he said. yet.

"what do you mean?.." jake questioned in a quiet voice as sunghoon only stared back at him with his same serious face on.
he definitely didn't seem like he was joking.

he sighed softly and kept staring at jake, not forgetting to make occasional eye contact with him. "i mean... maybe i am starting to like you jake. i thought about it a bit.. and i'm still not so sure but i know i felt jealous seeing you with heeseung- i'm guessing that's because i'm starting to like you."

"since i confessed to sunoo, we spoke and i feel so much better like you said that i would—relieved really... i just haven't been able to get you off my mind, honestly."

jake still stared blankly at sunghoon, he was definitely in shock and you could read it on his expression.
but sunghoon decided not to comment on it and let him try to comprehend what he just said.

jake quickly looked away from the boy beside him and down at the floor, specifically looking at his feet now. the air suddenly felt heavy and jake was internally panicking.

did sunghoon just confess to me???
no definitely not. he just said that he MIGHT like me.
wait he might like me???? WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?!
he's not joking is he?.. that'd be messed up.
and that's not like him.
but it's also not like him to say that he's getting feelings for me?
oh my god i gotta leave. what do i say?-

jakes thoughts would've gone on and on but luckily they were stopped by sunghoon carefully tapping on jakes shoulder. "are you okay jake? you look kinda pale."
sunghoon suddenly looked a bit worried now, to jakes surprise.
jake chuckled nervously, it sounded more awkward than he meant for it to come out. "huh? i'm cool. i mean i feel perfect- what do you mean? haha." he smiled awkwardly and quickly stood up from the couch, maybe he was overreacting a bit. it wasn't that big of a deal but jake couldn't control himself.

sunghoon looked at him worriedly and followed his lead, standing up from his seat. he placed a hand on the middle of jakes back and carefully examined his face.

this definitely didn't help jakes mental health at the moment, considering that his face was pretty close to him and he still was so confused.
"w-what? hoon i'm fine. i think i just need to get some sleep. oh yeah that's probably why i look pale! i stayed up all night." he laughed awkwardly, at least he wasn't lying, that was the truth just maybe there was some other reason why as well.

jake started to walk away but of course sunghoon stopped him, grabbing his hand.
jake would usually feel butterflies about this type of thing but instead he just wanted to get the hell out of there. before he embarrassed himself or something-

"hey. i'm sorry for making you uncomfortable.. i will think about what i feel more.. and maybe you should too- i mean you told me that you've liked me for a while but i can tell that you're starting to like heeseung as well. maybe we both have some thinking to do? all i know is that i don't want anything to be awkward between us. that's it."

sunghoon patted jakes shoulder, smiling his kind smile and it only reminded jake of how much he really liked this guy that was in front of him.
still, there was one thing stopping him from committing to this crush on sunghoon.
his developing feelings for heeseung.

"i know that it might be too late to be saying all of this jake... you've secretly liked me this whole time, and it probably hurt you, having to keep it inside that long but.. i just want you to know that i am here for you." sunghoon smiled softly and ruffled jakes hair.

meanwhile, jake couldn't stop the blush that was now appearing on his face.

he knows that he likes sunghoon more.
and he really wanted to tell him.
but there was something that felt so wrong to jake- that he would be hurting heeseung. that was something he wanted least, especially when all heeseung has been to him was nice.
not to mention the moments they've shared together.

he knows that he has some kind of connection with heeseung.
but he still wasn't sure if it was more than what he felt about sunghoon this whole time.. he would have to think about it more.

"o-okay, sunghoon. thank you. this is just a lot to take in... and i don't know what to say." he rubbed the back of his neck and looked down at his feet, ignoring having to look at his face because it would only make him even more nervous.

luckily, sunghoon didn't mind that much and let him go home so that he could think as well.

but jake definitely didn't know how he would think of this and be able to come to a conclusion, it was way too difficult.

so he did the next thing that he could think that was best.

to go drink.

this wasn't the smartest decision that he'd ever made.. but there was one thing he knew for sure- it was that he seemed to know things better when he was drunk and even if he himself wouldn't remember them... someone who goes with him would.
so that is why he managed to drag jungwon with him to the bar that night.

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guys- basically, i wrote this part and it ended up being like.... 2300 words lmao and that's too much.
so i split it into two because whyyy not :D

anywho, i hope you enjoy reading these two parts :)

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