SECRECTS I CAN'T KEEP FOREVER - eremika -

1: pre-party drama

"Oh My God. Mikasa, you only live once. Highschool is only for 4 years, and as seniors it is our priority to attend parties." Sasha always tries to butt me into getting involved with parties...

"Sasha, I'm probably not going to be familiar with half of those people. I'm new, remember?" This was my first though last year of highschool.

Ever since Eren helped me when I was young, Carla thought it would be best to homeschool me. But Eren begged for her to put me in school for my last year.

Remembering all this is really not helping my case with Sasha. I mean Eren begged for me to even be here, i might as well go.

"I KNOWWW KASA, just please. Just this once, even Armin is coming and he's a nerd."

"I'll come, Sash." Sasha grew the largest smile i've ever seen.

But who will I even talk to at the party? I cant just be stuck on Eren the whole time 'cause other people will obviously talk with him. Fuck, i shouldn't have said yes.

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Shortly after school i went home. Me and Eren started walking home together after everyone had already left.

Me and him have been trying to keep us being friends on the down low, especially since we live together.

Erens a popular kid, he has lots of friends. While for me I dont have many friends, only really about 3. Because of this I told Eren to keep us being friends on the DL. When i first told him he was all flabbergasted..

"MIKASAAAA, you're telling me I cant fucking talk to you in school"

"Yes, I dont want people to start treating you weird because of me."

"Mikasa we've been best friends for a majority of our lives. If people think of me differently than so be it."

"eren. no, please do this for me. It'll make me feel better. We can always talk at home."

(back to present)

When he said the best friend part it kinda hurt, i don't necessarily know why but.. whatever.

After we got home I got dressed out of my school clothes, and into pajamas.

I heard Eren screaming my name in his room. I started rushing to his room.

"EREH, are you okay?!" Eren put his phone to my face.

My eyes widened.

"MIKA WE HAVE BEEN CAUGHT."

The photo was on Ymir's snapchat story, it was her story named 'Attack Highschool'. She has probably most of the school on that shit, i mean it is called the highschool name... It was a photo of me and Eren, locked arms as we were walking home. WAIT- i didn't even notice we were locking arms tf.

"oh shit, Eren this is... bad. People are going to be so weird to us on Monday."

"Hey atleast your not gonna be harassed at Sasha's party."

fuck. i am absolutely fucked. I forgot all about her party. People are gonna harass me.

"NO EREH IM GOING TO THAT PARTY.."

"MIKA THE ONE PARTY YOU DECIDE TO GO TO IS AT THE WORST FUCKING TIME!!"

We ended up complaining in his room about how weird its gonna be at her party.

"Mikasa, how do you wanna play this? Should we act like nothing happened and avoid each other like usual or be all up on each other?"

"Neither?? The fuck, lets just act like we just met this year."

"MIKA HOW THE FUCK DO I DO THAT. I've known you longer than Zeke. And that mf is my actual brother."

We ended up practicing in his room on how to act like we didnt really know each other, Carla ended up joining.

After that I went to my room. Just as i started to lay down my brain didn't want a fucking break.

I started thinking .. do sneaky links , like- link arms like that in public? that doesn't seem very normal

Me and Eren have been sneaky links ever since sophomore year. I guess that's probably why i didnt want people to know about us.

Just before I started to get in my feelings I got a facetime call, from Sasha.

Oh shit, I accepted anyway even though I know what she's gonna talk about.

"MIKASA  ACKERMAN. I FOUND OUT THROUGH... SNAPCHAT?!?"

"Sash, there is nothing to 'find out', me and Eren are friends."

" w-what? Kasa what the fuck are you talking about? Im talking about Historia's story..."

Fuck. I fucked it up.

"oh, um... can I see what you're talking about then."

"uhm, yeah .. i'll start sharing my screen."

She started to show an old photo of me and armin when we were very much younger.

"Oh, yeah! uhm me and Armin look very cute in the photo!!"

"Mikasa. You better not think I'm going to let that other shit slip my mind..."

I didnt really want to say anything.

"Hey, can we just talk about it at the party tomorrow night?"

"Yeah.. But can we talk about how you never told me that you and Armin are childhood friends??"

"Ahh, I just thought it wasnt that relevant."

"I wonder what else isn't 'that relevant' that you havent told me."

"Can i call you tomorrow before the party? Aunties calling me down for dinner."

Im a fucking liar

"Yeah of course! Go eat."

As soon as i got off the phone Eren burst into my room.

"Hey, Carla just left to get groceri–"

Before he could even finish speaking, i quickly pulled him into a kiss. It slowly just turned into a makeout session.

We heard my door open and we both jumped off each other. It was Carla..

"Have either one of you seen my phone?"

"Yea ma, its in my room."

"Thank you eren!"

I let out the deep breath ive been holding for about a minute or two.

Eren starts, "that was close, huh?"

"Yea."