A Journey that change's everything

Ch 9: You care about me? LIAR!!

REDSONS POV: I woke up with a small groan as sun flash in though cracks of my windows 'god is it morning already?...' I picked my head off my pillow and looked at my clock 9:30 I sighed and sat up looking down at my hands 'why am I like this' I thought closing my hands into fists 'I can't keep lying to myself saying that I'm good person or that I'm different than my father I'M POISON, I come from poison, I have poison inside of me, and I destroy everything I touch and care about THAT'S my legacy I'll never be more than that' I felt angry tears form in my eyes 'GOD I HATE MYSELF!' I wasn't thinking straight as I stabbed my wrist with my nails until it was bleeding even when it did I didn't stop my tears got to heavy to stay in my eyes and started to fall down my face as I yelled at myself in my head 'why are you crying you stupid peasant your father's right it would be better if you just dyed it would be better for everyone' "I'm sorry..." I said softly as my vision got blurry because of my tears, I felt movement next to me and froze 'Mother is still here how could I forget peasant I'm so stupid' I tryed to get up without her waking up but I failed a hand grabbed my wrist, the wrist that was bleeding "Redson what is this?" Mother asked in a deep harsh tone pulling me harshly towards her tighting her grip on me "stop crying and tell me what is this!?" She started to raise her tone angrily "I'M-I'M SORRY... I-I DIDN'T MEAN TO!" I sobbed as she pushed my hand away as I fell backwards onto the floor, my tears showed no sign of stopping it's like I had a whole ocean of tears "Redson..." Mother got in front of me flashbacks of my father and mother kicking me over and over again till I passed out replayed in my mind my eyes widened with tears "I'M SORRY!!" I flinched closing my eyes tightly waiting for her to punch or hit me but instead a gust of window swooped me up on my feet I opened my eyes to see my mother looking at me with a unknown expression "Redson what am I going to do with you? You keep hurting yourself and I keep watching you do it" She said wiping my tears away I was shocked but also kind of mad why did she just start caring now but I ignored the emotion and focused on the shocked one "w-what-" "Redson please don't hurt yourself what am I going to do without you. Here let me help you dear." She used a gust of wind to bring her a band aid as it was placed in her hand she unwrapped it and then took my wrist and carefully put the band aid over my stab while talking to me "Redson your like a gem to me bright smart handsome... I don't know where I would be without you, you are the most important thing to me it might not always look like that but it's true and I'll talk to your father about how he treats you." Mother held my hands I looked at her my legs were shaking as well as my whole body and my tears weren't stopping a part of me was so over filled with joy and happiness that she finally showed emotions that proved she cared about me atleast a little but I couldn't help but feel anger boil inside of me why after so many witnesses of my tramas, scars, bruises, overworking, yelling, name calling, going for days without eating, slaps, hits, punches, kicks, bleeding, sudden outbursts, crying, and broken bones she only now acts out about it and she even did this but it was mostly my father so I was thankful she was willing to talk to him about it I think she realized that I was shaking and was about to say something but I beat her to it "THANK YOU!" I sobbed hugging her crying on her shoulder before I was pushed back off her "what do you think your doing?" "I... I was hugging you?" "Well don't your filthy tears are going to get my shoulders wet." She huffed "and quit your crying it's annoying." "Oh... sorry mother..." 'so much for being her gem...' I thought as I quickly silenced my crys to not make her angry "good now that your more calm let me go get dressed so we can go to that dumpster noodle shop and I suggest you do the same okay?" She didn't know what happened at pigsys noodles i didn't want to go back there but I was gonna have to I couldn't risk getting her mad "okay..." I muddered moving out of her way as she walked past me I didn't look back once I heard the door shut I let out a scream of rage and pain then a load of sobs I started feeling myself burn into a ball of fire as I started to burn stuff around me I threw my stuff that was on my desk to the floor I was having a meltdown I had hot tears going down my face I burnt everything around me until I was tired and just fell to my knees 'of course she dosen't care about me! I'm so STUPID!! DID I REALLY THINK SHE LOVED ME GOD I'M SUCH A PEASANT!' I sobbed more at the thought I really was stupid to think she would love me for even a second ''SHE'S A LIAR!! I-I HATE HER OF COURSE SHE DOESN'T LOVE ME ALL I DO IS MESS UP!!" I screamed sending a wave of fire towards my pictures of when I was younger with Mother playing with me "NO!" I quickly scrambled towards the burning pictures I was no longer on Fire every part of me was extinguished i put the pictures out with my hand, slamming it down on the fire rapidly until they were put out "NO NO NO! PLEASE BE OKAY!!" I yelled at the photos they were the only good memoires I had with her soon after the fire left I picked up the pictures to see the damage they were slightly burnt but overall they were okay I sighed in relief before pure panic washed over me again "I-I HAVE TO GET DRESSED! SHIT!" I picked myself up running around my room to find my red coat and dark-ish purple shoes I already had a black turtleneck on so I didn't change that i scrambled over to my closet looking for my classic red coat it didn't take very long to find it since my closet was pretty neat and organized just like my room "REDSON YOU READY?" I heard mother yell from down the hallway "UM- J-JUST A MINUTE!" I yelled back I put one of arms through the sleeve then started crawling on the floor to find my shoes "REDSON HURRY UP I DOESN'T TAKE THIS LONG!" "I'M WORKING ON IT!" Sweat started to form on my head I was scared if I didn't finish on time before she lost her temper, FINALLY I found my purple shoes under my bed I grabbed them and put them on in the matter of seconds I left the pictures on my bed and was about to run out of my room when I heard a crunch underneath my foot "the hell?..." I removed my foot and saw another picture I was about to look at it closer but I heard my mother yell "REDSON IM GIVING YOU TO THE COUNT OF 3!!!" I let out a frightening Yelp and stuffed the picture in my coats pocket 'I'll look at it later' I thought running out of the room I saw her waiting in the living room "ONE" I started running down the hall while putting my other arm through my coat sleeve "TWO" I wasn't going to make it... until I remembered that i could teleport with my fire and I did just that I teleported right next to her "THRE- Oh good your done." "Yeah! Sorry that I-" I was stopped by a hard slap that was across my right cheek "GOD YOU TOOK SO LONG YOU INSURABLE BOY I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR EXCUSES NEXT TIME DO BETTER!!" Mother yelled as I held my cheek with tears threatening my eyes "Oh don't cry it didn't even hurt your embarrassing yourself." Mother rolled her eyes crossing her arms I wanted yell at her so badly but I've dealt with it forever I was kind of used to it I always wanted to yell and lash out at her and Father when they did this but I could never get anything out of my mouth I was scared of what they would do or say besides it was my own fault for failing them.... right? "Heh... sorry shall we go?" I mustered through tears and fear "yeah let's go" I nodded and surrounded us with flame and within a few seconds we were at the noodle shop I felt my nervousness rise as I looked at the shop "why didn't you just land us inside this dumpster house?" Mother asked looking at me with a annoyed gaze in her eyes "um...i wantedtoseewhattheyweredoingandohthereeatingnoodlesokayyougofirstmotheriinstist!" I said looking away from her gaze feeling sweat forming on my forehead Mother kept her gaze on me for a few more seconds before entering the shop I tryed to walk in after her but I couldn't so I just watched from the window to see how they would react when Mother walked in... at first they were surprised but then they greeted her? WHAT!?! I felt my body start to shake 'just walk inside!' I yelled at myself but before I even had the option I saw noodle turn his head towards the window were I Redson was at, he looked right at me and said something that I didn't hear and then pointed at me with the free hand he had that wasn't holding his noodle bowl 'Shit! He saw me!' Before anyone else got a chance to see me I used my flames and teleported myself onto the roof of the crappy noodle shop then just sat down on a... I'm gonna say a air vent I know Noodle boy wasn't there when I set off the sprinklers but he had witnessed me cry and sob in my room I was embarrassed to show my face after crying in front of him I covered my face with my hands and sighed wallowing in shame not hearing the footsteps coming closer to me...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OOOOOO CLIFFHANGER!! I love doing that but anyways here yet another chapter, Redson has it tough in this chapter his damn mother won't give him a break and it's only gonna get worse UNTIL NEXT TIME MY SILLY BILLY'S!!!!!