Found | Shuri (Searchin' Sequel)

| F I F T E E N |

* Y'all, I made the mistake of listening to Another Lifetime by Nao when I wrote this chapter & definitely teared up a bit. 😭 I'm adding this at the beginning in case y'all want the experience too 💀 *

| Hazel |

"Shuri, wh- what are you saying?" My words came out as a whisper.

"Maybe you were right." Her voice cracked as she repeated the words. "Us being in a relationship is just too complicated."

"You wait until now to realize that? When I've fallen this deeply in love with you?"

She looked away, crossing her arms over her chest.

"Shuri, our relationship isn't going to be perfect."

"It's not suppose to be... but it's not suppose to be this complicated either."

"We're learning." I argued. "We're suppose to work through it."

"I can't keep working Hazel. I can't continue to coddle your insecurities and trying to convince you to trust me."

Tears filled her eyes as she made eye contact with me for a second and looked away again.

"So you're just going to give up on us? Is it really that easy for you?"

The tears continued to fall from both of our eyes. We were both trying are hardest to make them stop.

"You have to work on yourself."

My mouth opened, but no words would come out. I was still trying to process what she was saying to me. That this was really happening right now.

"I've been working. Can you not see that?" I finally managed to get out.

She sighed, looking at me again.

"Without me, Hazel."

"Shuri, I put my life on pause. For you."

"I didn't ask you to do that."

It felt like she ripped my heart out at that moment.

"You didn't have to. I did it because I love you and I want us to make this work."

She remained silent as I continued to pour my heart out, knowing I probably wasn't making it any better.

"So I opened my heart up and loved you just for us to go back to being strangers? Thats it? That's the end game for us?"

She stood there silently while I was now a crying mess.

"I guess for now."

How was she okay with this?

"Shuri, please don't do this."

She wiped the tears from her face as I sat there basically begging for her love.

"It's what's best for us right now.. I'll have an aircraft prepared for you in the morning."

She said quickly before walking out of the room, leaving me there speechless.

There was a tightness in my chest and I had somehow forgotten how to breathe.

I was angry, but not at her. At myself, for ruining the one thing that brought me happiness.

The one person that brought me happiness.

My back pressed against the wall as I slid down it, immediately bringing my knees to my chest and sobbing into them for what felt like hours.

I sat there, waiting.

Waiting for her to come back.

Waiting for her to say she didn't mean it.