How To Be Scared Of Color

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Felix screamed into his pillow that night, in disbelief because of his own actions. He turned onto his back and stared at the ceiling before rubbing his face, "why did I do that? What's wrong with me?"

He felt crazy. The second that he had pulled back from the hug, he immediately turned and entered his dorm room, only to sigh out and the regret set in. So he did the rational thing and promptly threw himself onto his bed, whining into his pillow wondering how he could be so stupid.

Not long after he started his staring contest with the ceiling, he heard his phone go off. He looked at to read Jisung's text on his lockscreen, hey, how'd the hangout go? Which led Felix to groan again, "I'm so dumb."

He was glad that it had been a Friday since he didn't have to go to classes for two whole days. He couldn't face anyone. Not since he knew Changbin would more than likely tell the others, or at least Jisung, about their hangout and he couldn't come to terms about what had occurred.

Felix even knew that at least one of his friends was probably going to show up at his dorm the following day, or that Sunday. And Felix knew that it would probably be Jisung who showed up at an ungodly time. Though he decided not to dwell on it, and just crawled under the covers, not even bothering to change.

The following day, Felix sat waiting for someone to either message him or show up to his dorm. And luckily for him, it wasn't just someone but multiple people that showed up to his dorm. Seungmin, Jeongin, and Jisung all ended up at his door, knocking obnoxiously and Felix had only slightly opened his door when the other's came barrelling in, making Felix jump back, "the hell?"

"Tell us everything," Jeongin said excitedly, sitting on the Australian's bed, the other two following in suit.

"There's nothing to tell really," Felix replied, walking over to his mini fridge to grab a bottle of juice.

"That's not what Changbin was squealing about like a high schooler last night," Jisung replied.

"He was so excited," Seungmin chuckled.

"He was?" The Australian asked.

"Yeah," Jisung chuckled.

"Damn that's kind of cute," Felix muttered to himself, rubbing his face in frustration, "It was nice, okay? I...he told me about him and I told him a bit more about me. And then he...I told him about Minsu."

"You what?" Seungmin asked.

"I told him about how I was in a relationship before," Felix said, sitting down at his desk, "and I told him about how were together for a year and he ended up confessing that he couldn't see color."

"How did he react?" Jeongin asked.

"Called him an asshole," Felix said with a soft chuckle, "and I explained to him that I was being so cold all because of that. All because I didn't want to get close to someone new again. And I apologized for everything. And then I got frustrated with myself and nearly sobbed my eyes out in front of him because almost all I've been to him is mean, and then all he's been to me is nice and given me chance after chance when he could have just given up. And then I realized that I have been basically ignoring you guys at the diner, which I'm really sorry for I've just...I've been really stubborn, and I'm going to try to be better, really."

"How are you genuinely feeling after hanging out with him yesterday though? Good?" Jeongin asked.

Felix nodded, "I feel okay about it. Though it could have ended better."

"How so?" Jeongin asked.

"Do you wish you would have ki-"

"Shut up Seungmin," Felix laughed, "I don't wish that. I just...I hugged him. And I immediately cringed about it after I got back inside."