How To Be Scared Of Color

antique

Changbin sighed when he saw Felix squeezed in between Chan and Jeongin, walking over and sitting across from Felix, hoping to get his attention when he sat down, but he frowned when he saw Felix didn't even glance in his direction.

He hadn't realized how much he wanted Felix's attention until that moment. And it wasn't until that moment that Changbin realized that maybe he liked Felix too much. He was just so drawn to the younger male. Like he was a moth and Felix was a flame. Bright and warm and Changbin just wanted to be around the Australian all the time. The younger was running miles in Changbin's head during most of the day and far into the nighttime too. Changbin had been enchanted by the other male since he first laid eyes on the blonde. He wondered if Felix felt the same at all.

He wondered if he was on Felix's mind just as much. Wondered if Felix felt enchanted like he had. Clearly Felix didn't feel like he wanted to be around Changbin all the time and that stung a little bit, but he also thought that he was the crazy one for wanting to be around the younger every chance he got.

Though not getting to even sit by Felix at all for going on two weeks straight, while thankfully still talking to the younger over text, but he still wanted to sit by Felix. Feel the addicting butterflies in his stomach, casually touch his leg to the youngers. Make up a reason to touch Felix's hair by claiming there was a piece of fuzz or something on it. Anything, really.

Changbin sat on the bench, eyes trained on Felix running back and forth on the field during his soccer game, lost in thought for the entire first half of the game. Chan had noticed during the break when Changbin was still staring across the field at Felix on the bench, drinking his water, "Changbin? You okay?"

"Huh? Oh, yeah, fine," Changbin nodded.

Hyunjin hummed, "convincing."

Changbin sighed as Jisung spoke, "what's going on?"

"You guys will think I'm weird, forget it," Changbin waved a hand.

"Oh come on, we won't think you're weird," Minho stated.

"If it's bugging you, and you want to share, we'll listen, and won't judge you," Chan added.

"Okay," Changbin nodded and turned to face the others, "I...I like sitting by Felix, right? But I haven't really been able to sit by him for a while and I guess I just miss that? It's weird."

Chan shook his head, "I don't think it's necessarily weird, you like him, right?"

"Yeah," Changbin nodded, "a lot."

"It's not weird to want to sit beside the guy you like," Jisung hummed out.

"It's a normal thing," Hyunjin nodded.

Minho pointed to Jisung who was sat right next to him, "I don't really have to say anything."

Changbin laughed at that, "I just...I think I'm more worried about Felix feeling weird?"

"Just sit next to him tomorrow at lunch," Hyunjin said, "have whoever is beside him, move over. There's no shame in it."

The other nodded, "okay, yeah. You're right."

Chan smiled, "now, let's watch your boyfriend win the game.

"Your actual boyfriend is also playing," Changbin chuckled in response.

"Shut up," Chan replied, "I was trying to tease you."

Changbin chuckled again, turning his attention back to the field as the second half of the game. He watched Felix walk out and he caught the youngers eye, smiling and waving to the blonde. And Changbin smiled even wider when Felix smiled and waved back. And when Felix looked away, Changbin sighed out, smile still on his face.