Mrs Scuderi

chapter twenty three

             Fabiana's Pov
"You cheated on her?"Havi asks barging into my office with my new secretary Maddie following in apologetically. "It's okay Maddie but next time it's your job you're leaving in this office,"i say bluntly dismissing her and focusing on my little nosey sister. It wasn't cheating technically and Amelia was just doing this for payback. "I slipped up it happens,"i say genuinely. "Shit like fucking someone else when you're in a lifetime commitment isn't a slip up you ass face. Amelia isn't a fuck buddy that you keep to yourself while you explore other potential side pieces,"she says unaware that her last statement is actually inaccurate but the way she phrased it made me see her point.

She could easily have slept with other people but she wasn't because she respected our agreement while i danced on it. Here i was trying to learn how to be a friend while keeping up my old habits. I'm such an asshole.

"I don't expect her to forgive me but I'll try,"

"Try? Fucking try? The one person in your life that doesn't give a fuck how much is in your bank account or who you are, doesn't take shit from anyone including you and you just mess it up over some fucked up sex insatiability? She paid for my shopping spree you know, with her own money and i didn't even notice until i saw her swipe her card on the last store trying to be discreet so i wouldn't see," she says and i realise Amelia never mentioned it to me. She knows i would have paid her back but then again this is Amelia, miss independent. "I'll apologize to her i promise,"i say getting irritated with her playing marriage counselor.

"Are you hearing yourself? Stop making stuff about you for once,"she says defeated before walking out of the office making sure all my pens were lying on the floor. Classic Haviana. I understand that she's only like this because she wants me to be happy. She's watched me be mom's puppet and be with women who wanted nothing more than my black card. She even kicked one of them out when she found her in my bed. I go back to work looking over the next big shareholders i need to pull into the company. I've been buried in my work since i was 20 and being an emotional zombie worked well with me. It still does.

I finish up work ready to leave but Maddie walks in abruptly, "You still have that interview with the BIT magazine. Should i cancel it?"she asks like it was even an option. "Ofcourse,"i say walking past her. I haven't talked to any journalist since mom threw me a surprise birthday party then announced my engagement. I hated being in the lime light especially because they could easily dig up my past and i don't know how I feel about it. Mom on the other hand always has a page on magazines desperate to stay relevant. I get in the car with the driver already aware of where of where I'm headed, the flower shop. Women like flowers, something about the colors and how big of a bouquet it is with chocolates and maybe a side note.

Once i pick out flowers i know she'd like i pay up making sure to tip the lady for staring a little bit to much. No doubt this will be on some magazine or blogs. I can't remember the last time I went to a local shop here. When we pull up to the house the car i gave Amelia isn't parked upfront so i know she's not home. Either that or it's parked in the garage. "Diana where's Amelia?" I ask once i enter the kitchen where she's making dinner. "Ah Mrs scuderi says she goes to her parents house,"she says and i don't know why it alters my heartbeat. Why was she there? What if she told them and they hated me just when i started to like them? I sit down to eat placing the flowers and chocolates next to me. So much for a thoughtful gesture.

When I'm done i help clean up before going to my room and drop the flowers in hers but I'm stopped by the front door opening to reveal a drained Amelia in black leggings, a black bralette with one of my white collared shirts that's Abit oversized for her. There's nothing i don't like about the scene. "Rewarding yourself for being the biggest asshole?"she asks bitterly stopping once she's infront of me. "Actually they're for you. I'm sorry,"i say pushing them forward and she starts sneezing. "Get those things away from me!"she hisses backing up which scares me a little because of the tone she's using and i do so immediately.

"Clearly you had a meeting with the devil and he gave you those,"she says and I'm a little insulted because i went out of my way to get them. "What is wrong with you? "I ask agitated and it's her turn to arch her eyebrows giving me a side eye. "What's wrong with me? You put those flowers in my face and I'm deadly allergic Fabi,"she says calling me that nickname. I hate it completely but the thought of it coming from her makes it a little bearable.

"Now I'm apologizing for two things?"

"Oh i can tell it's the hardest thing you've ever had to do since birth,"she says sarcastically but it Triggers me mostly because that's exactly what I was doing since birth, apologizing. "You know what fuck you and your allergies," i say throwing the flowers on the floor together with the chocolates. I'm so done with her playing victim when she's just a fling. I walk out on her leaving her to process whatever the fuck just happened courtesy of her. I feel the urge to slam something on the wall, a glass, that lamp on my nightstand, Amelia, but i don't. Instead i change into some boy shorts and my sports bra before walking over to my balcony with a bottle of the shittiest wine.

I don't know how Amelia drinks it. I've already calmed down when i hear a soft knock on the glass door to my balcony and there she is again. "Are you okay?" She asks plopping next to me. "What do you think?" I ask. "Relax I'm still mad at you so don't play victim. I just wanted to make sure you're not here punching the wall or something,"she says grabbing the bottle from me taking a huge gulp.

"I said I'm sorry didn't i?"

"If this was a real marriage I'd have filed for a divorce when your secretary tried to get territorial,"she says making us both giggle. The thing i found nice about her was she made sure the conversation wasn't hostile.

"Wouldn't that mean you didn't love me enough to protect what's yours?"

"Oh Fabi you can't protect what's for the people,"she says and i can't help but smile at how good that come back was. "You can fuck whoever you want to i don't care. But do that when our deal is done. It's so disgusting to be leveled down to these other girls you toy with because I'm not like that. If anything you should be flattered that i gave you access to me. And lastly if i can't trust you to hold on to your end of the agreement i don't see the point in holding mine," she says and this feels somewhat like a break up except it's not. I'm too surprised to even utter a word because she's calling me out but trying to be respectful at the same time.

"I'm going to earn your trust again i promise,"i say feeling embarrassed that i made her feel that way when in all sense she was wayyy out their scale length. "You better mean it because you don't get the same me twice,"she says getting up to leave but i stop her grabbing her arm gently. "Sleep in my bed tonight please?" I ask but she just shakes her head. "It's a shame you lost all the progress we had isn't it? I would have said yes before but it's definitely a no,"she says walking out and leaving me there to wallow in the open rejection i just received from her. I've never seen this side of her before but i sure as hell don't want to keep experiencing it.