Mrs Scuderi

chapter twenty six

Fabiana's Pov
"I'm not letting you bath me Fabi, the doctor said it won't be long before i go back to normal,"she says blocking me but i need the shower as much she does and I'd hate if she got hurt in my house because I'd never hear the end of it that and the fact that I've been so frustrated with dad's little time here. The doctor said he could die any minute from now and I don't want to miss saying goodbye. "I'm really not in the mood short stuff so get in there now,"i command and she just bites her lip before getting in and i do too running the shower and watching the water fall on her chocolate skin so delicately. I grab the shower gel squirting some on my hands before running it over her back. Once I'm content, i spin her around so now she's watching me run my hands over her breasts and arms wincing a bit at the hand.

I'm trying my best not to make it sexual but her hard nipples are making it hard. "You can suck on them you know,"she says and that's all it takes for me to lift her up with her legs wrapped around my waist as i suck hard on them one at a time and i can hear her moaning lowly. I keep sucking harder each time biting them in the process and stop when she winces. "Ow! that hurt,"she says and i notice that i was getting carried away. I go back to sucking on her neck this time. "I don't think we should do this, your dad is dying,"she says. I put her down spinning her roughly to face the wall and bending her over before entering her from behind. I slam into her harder and faster the more her words replay in my head not even bothered to be careful with her.

She did like it rough after all. When I'm done I cover my body with soap before rinsing us both with her still facing the wall. "Aren't coming out?"i ask grabbing a towel outside and one for her. "No you go be with your dad. I still need to condition my hair,"she says softly with her back facing me and i hesitate but leave her there. We've all been taking turns to take care of dad. Mom called us all in from the kitchen where Haviana was helping me make food for all of us. When i get in to the room the atmosphere is completely different, sad and calm. "I love all you i hope you know that and when I'm gone please don't dwell on it, I'm old anyway,"he says playfully but no one is willing to let go just yet.

We watch him fade away with mom sobbing when he closes his eyes the same time the heart monitor stops beeping and we all realise that he's gone. He's not taking a nap, he's gone. He's never going to put mom in her place when she was being to stubborn, he's not going to bother me with calls because he wants to catch up, he's not going to be at Camino's track competition and he's never going to see the man that would make Haviana happy. He's going to miss all of those. I can see everyone's lips moving but can't here a word their saying. I can feel the walls closing in on me. "Fabia what do we do?" Haviana asks but i can't think right now so i storm out to go outside to get some fresh air.

Everything i was holding back was coming up. "Hey are you okay?" Amelia asks rubbing my arm with her free hand worriedly. "He's dead,"i say bluntly staring into the pool water. I feel her hands wrapped around me but i don't need this. A hug isn't going to bring him back or make everything okay once she pulls away. "I need to be alone right now,"i tell her getting up and head to my car to probably drive as far as I can to be away from all this. How am I supposed to learn grief before love? Learn to let go instead of holding on? When i get back it's already dark. Mom is up and down talking over the phone. Haviana and Amelia are no where in sight only Camino is on the couch on his phone.

"Where have you been? We took your dad to the mortuary before we plan the funeral,"mom says filling me in. I didn't know how long this her would last especially with dad gone and no one to tame her. "Mom called the press to tell them about dad,"Camino says bitterly. It hasn't even been 24 hours and she's already doing this? "Call them back right now and say god knows what to stop it from being public. He's our dad before he's anyone's boss or favorite billionaire,"i say gritting my teeth in disgust. How self centered could she be? Wanting to sell dad's death in order to have the first page as a widow? She looks at me as if considering something before dialing a number, "Don't publish it,"she says her eyes still on mine before she hangs up.

"Power is already getting into your head huh?"she asks before striding away letting me know that it's not over. The last thing i want is a family feud before dad is peacefully buried. Amelia and Haviana walk in to the house and i had t realised they weren't in the house. All this time i thought they were somewhere in the house taking all this in. My sister's eyes are red and puffy with her nose red as well. They walk passed Camino and i on the couch going through dad's pictures to see which one would suit his funeral, to the kitchen. I want to follow them in there but i don't want to see her like that, crying her eyes out while I'm holding back every ounce of tear i have within me.

"I think dad would have loved this one,"he says showing me a picture of all of us when he and Haviana got accepted into college. We were all happy and clueless of what lay ahead. "Okay buddy we'll go with that one,"i say and we pack up everything else and move to the kitchen where Amelia is making something with three cups laid out. She's using her one hand so i move over to help. "It's okay go sit down i got this,"she says moving away from me in one swift motion. Did i do something to her? Was it about me walking out on her at the pool?i sit down with my siblings and watch her do whatever it is she's doing. "Here you go, hot chocolate with marshmallows, you guys need it,"she says pushing all three cups to us expectantly.

It looks cute but I'm not sure this will do anything. I watch them take sips impressed so i decide to take one myself and she's right, the chocolate is just enough with limited sugar that makes it taste even better. She excuses herself when she gets a call and we all just nod clearly enjoying her work of art. I decide to go check on her once i finish the whole cup Incase mom decided to start with her. As i get closer i can hear her talking in frustration so i decide to wait until she's done. "Mom don't start, she just lost her dad and needs me. We'll file for a divorce when she's ready,"she says lying about the last bit.

Just what was her plan actually? I feel bad for evesdropping so decide to go back in but stop when she says something that catches my attention. "I'm going back to London once everything blows over okay? I haven't paused my career i just needed a distraction from everything,"she says. I walk back in unnoticed processing everything that she said. She was going back without telling me? Why was i even offended that she called me a distraction?