Mrs Scuderi

chapter forty seven

Amelia's Pov
"Joanna just give it a chance, you clearly love her,"i hear her say in the bathroom. I had simply wanted to come in and brush my teeth but she was on the phone and i couldn't help but unintentionally eves drop. I mouth to her that i just want to brush my teeth and she gestures for me to do so not once feeling uncomfortable that she's talking about Fabiana out loud. "What's terrifying about helping take care of an infant?" She asks agitated and I'm just focusing on my brushing. Once I'm done i decide to leave not wanting to hear any more of it. Why did my heart feel heavy all of a sudden? Fabiana wouldn't take her back, she couldn't.

I decide to dress up and go out for brunch with Ophelia because it's Sunday and my schedule is clear. I put on a pair of ripped blue mom jeans and a white vested crop top and nude sandles because I've had heels on for as long as the week had dragged on. "I'm meeting up with Ophelia, do you need something?" I ask wanting her to feel included in my whereabouts. "Do you want me to come?" She asks catching me off guard with the question. "Okay yeah sure,"i say trying to sound very convincing. The truth is i was planning on spending today pouring my feelings out to Ophelia so i can stop feeling like this.

"Okay,"

"Don't you need to change?"

"Why i look okay,"she says making me chuckle at how cute she is for thinking I'd go to brunch with her looking like she needs coffee to function. "See I'm comfortable like this, you go and make sure you bring me some of those croissants,"she says walking over to me and leans in to kiss me and i meet her half way.

"I love you so much,"

"i love you too," i say placing my hands on her sides because she's cupping my face tilting my head up to face her. "I need to go before she makes me pay for her food,"i say giving her a sly smile. It's either she remembers what she said bad feels stupid for saying those things because I'm still here or she simply doesn't remember. I get in my car and drive down town to Clink street where we were supposed to meet twenty minutes ago. "If it isn't miss clock bearer,"she says sarcastically eating a fruit salad. "You secretly enjoy being the early one,"i say plopping down in the seat opposite of her near the window.

"You have that look,"

"The guilty look and i know it's not from being late, you're never early for this things,"

"i don't have a look,"

"Sure you do. Sophomore year you made out with my crush and liked it, you had that same look, and don't get me started on-"

"Alright alright fine, point made. Something almost happened between Fabi and I last night," i say as the waiter approaches the table to take my order. Few minutes later he comes back with my buttered croissants and a cup of coffee. Ophelia is waiting for him to leave so she can scold me and I'm praying he takes his time placing them before me. "You are with Freya now and your doing exactly what your against, cheating," she says bluntly and I feel even more guilty. I hated being lied to and made a fool of and that's what I was doing to Freya. She's tried her best to understand me and why I'm like this and i keep complicating things.

"Did you guys you know,"

"No not really, she kissed me and it got pretty heated when she had my umm...but no the call from Freya prevented it," i say sipping my coffee and the look of judgement on her face is piercing my body from all angles.

"What does she think about it?"

"I don't know, we didn't talk about it,"

"why? I had to go and she walked out when i took the call,"i say. "You need to make up your mind Lia, either lock that door with Fabiana and move on with Freya or give up everything for a tiny bit of hope that Fabiana isn't just pursuing you because you're with someone else,"she says agitated because she's always been fond of Fabiana,just not for me. She brings out a side of me that would rather be tucked away.