Mrs Scuderi

chapter eighteen

                Fabiana's Pov
I grab a blanket and head downstairs to watch on of the many movies Amelia had picked out. I found it hard to sleep not knowing how she was or what she was doing. I was such a jerk with the way i handled things. She could have easily left leaving a note but instead she wanted to tell me in person. Somehow her being away made me appreciate what it was like living with someone. I'm just not good with this whole friendship thing. I think to myself. "Since when is romance your business?" Haviana asks creeping on me which catches me off guard. "Don't fucking do that ever or your head on a platter will be my business,"i threaten her but she just shrugs plopping down on the couch next to me.

"Do you miss her?"she asks with her hand in my popcorn bowl. "Pft no she's annoying and obnoxiously loud and constantly having the need to get on my nerves. I am Amelia free and proud,"i say making her laugh. "Then why did you smile while saying all those things?call her,"she says focusing on the movie. I think on it for a rough ten minutes before getting my phone and calling her.

"Hey shortstuff,"

"Hey miss nonchalant,"she says still holding a grudge. "Umm how's everything?"i ask changing the topic. "Everything is okay...Amelia do you want coffee or tea?"i here someone ask her in the background and just hang up because it wasn't Ava.

Ofcourse she was doing okay. She's Amelia and anyone would be jumping on the single Amelia train if give the chance. I get a text from her asking if everything is okay and i send her a thumbs up emoji not knowing how to respond to it. Maybe i was jealous that i couldn't be easily friendly to her for reasons even i don't know. "Why is Amelia telling me to come check up on you siz?"Haviana asks showing me the text she got from her and it's just frustrating not just sexually but the whole situation.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Yeah sure,"

"how can one be a good friend?"i ask in a serious tone so she wouldn't think i was kidding.

"Aww Fabia wants to make human intewactions,"she says in a baby voice making me smack her head lightly. So much for openly asking for help.

"Fine I'll teach you but what's in it for me?"

"Food that you eat in my house for free,"i say pffting the dumb question. Like she wasn't a freeloader with me and our parents. "Okay, is this for Amelia? I know she's your wife but why do you have a wall with her? She's like the best sister in law ever,"she says making me roll my eyes. Clearly she hasn't asked for my opinion on her and i have plenty to say. "Okay I'll list down the 5things i think you need to start with,

1) smile more around them, doesn't hurt to show your teeth once in a while
2) Do a small favour or gesture brings good vibes to be honest.
3) show interest in the friendship it sucks when it's one sided because it feels forced
4)say yes more especially it's out of your comfort place and return the same gesture
5) lastly share more, like small personal things about yourself so she can see you want to be friends, "

She finishes scribbling them down and hands me the small paper. I read through them again and realise this is going to be harder than I thought. I mean what if i did all this and she was just okay with me having my wall up? "I know it won't be easy so we can do one at a time just choose which one,"she says. "I think i can start with  three,doesn't seem hard at all,"

"it doesn't but that doesn't mean faking interest counts,"

"geez fine doctor platonic!"i say raising my hands up. Such a smarty pants she is. We go back to watching the movie without me understanding anything. I liked it better when Amelia was here to explain it to me in dummy language. On the second movie Haviana was already asleep and i didn't want to wake her so i tucked her in on the couch and moved back to the bedroom. I end up stalking Amelia on her socials, something I'd never done before. Her Instagram was so aesthetic and warm with pictures of her and Ava and some alone and wait she still had pictures of her and Brianna there? It infuriated me to see how happy she was with her despite the jerk cheating freely.

I scroll back up and realise she just posted a picture a few minutes ago of her and a breathtaking woman i was familiar with kissing her cheek with a cheesy caption down below. She seemed happy. I look up ways to be an approachable person despite my sister giving me insight. She didn't know that Amelia and i were just friends with benefits that made a deal to remain that way. Now that i thought about it, mom has been quite since the dinner. And that meant that the deal we made was quickly coming to an end. The thought of us being strangers again made my stomach drop. How can we ever be strangers when i felt a weird spark in me the first time i saw her? The first time i kissed her? It felt familiar and dangerous yet amazing. That's how it always feels when i fuck her. I didn't want to do it with anyone else. I close my eyes and force myself to go to bed hoping that that chocolate made woman would walk right through those doors any minute.

Guys i don't know if i should just do Amelia's povs then Fabiana's after so it can be easier for me to navigate or what do you guys think? Let me know in the comments