Mrs Scuderi

chapter forty eight

Fabiana's Pov
"Joanna please grab Ariella's car seat for me,"i say with her in my arms drinking the infant formula she's on. She came over to talk but I'm already late. I know that she wants to get back together but I'm not ready to be with a person who has one foot out the door. This isn't an experiment,it's my life. The nursing woman started requesting for more money and it was about time i tried bonding more with the baby so i let her go. There's nothing wrong with formula, plus she's been happier and less noisy since she started. I wish Haviana was here was here to see what a sweet baby she got."Everything is packed,"my driver  says and I look over the house one last time to see if i forgot anything important for Ariella.

I put her in her car seat and get in next to her Incase she needs anything or wakes up and we drive off to the train station, leaving her there. I already said what I needed to say. Ariella can't fly yet and this is the only way. Endless hours on a train with just her and me. "Good evening miss Scuderi," my first class attendant says before taking my luggage and showing me where I'll be staying. There's a bed a small sofa among other things. Perfect for the owner. I've only used this train once because the staff is so resilient and consistent i don't have to monitor them. In total i own about three trains including the one I bought recently in dedication to my sister.

But it's not launched yet. I give her orders on food and everything because i don't think I'll leave this room at all unless we've arrived at our destination. Ofcourse I'm a day early because i want to ensure everything goes well plus getting my mom farlow to come to the funeral. Even though she committed some heinous crimes she deserves to say goodbye to her daughter. I place her gently on the bed and get out my laptop to sort out a few things. I can't remember the last time i set foot in Italy, maybe when i left the alter to go after the woman i lost. I decide to join my baby on the bed to take a nap so i don't have to think about losing my sister.

My little marriage counselor and love advisor. When we get there its already afternoon. And I'm eternally grateful that this little human didn't disturb alot.

"Hello Diana,"

"Il Mio bambino,"she says kissing my. Cheek before leaning over to see Ariella. "Is this her?" She asks. I let her take her because i could really use a break before i explode. She walks in with her and it's like i never existed. The house is just as every bit how i left it but when i get in I'm hit by memories of her here. Where she threw the flowers at me, where she hid because i swore I'd tickle the shit out of her when i catch her, the guestroom that she labeled hers whenever she couldn't keep up with mom. I already miss her. My room has a crib in it and a few baby stuff. No doubt it was Diana behind this.

She leads me to the garden where everything is set for the memorial. And theres a picture of her smiling widely and i remember it was the day I surprised her for her birthday. "She's stubborn just like her mother,"she says waving a toy over her head. I'm about to say something when my phone rings and i step away to receive it. "Hey short stuff,"i say and there's silence on the line.

"Hey Fabi, how are you holding up?"

"Good." I say simply. "Okay, we'll be there later on, our flight got delayed," she says reminding me again that she's with her and they go everywhere together. "It's Okay," i say hanging up. I get a call from the correctional officer a few hours later with Haviana's classmates already arriving, to confirm about my mom and i approve. I haven't seen her in a while and maybe she's been humbled in there. Since the memorial is to let people grief her i let them share how they remember Havi while standing in the back because i can't stand all the eyes on me. Like they expected me to react a certain ways say specific words.

She's gone and i swore I'd protect her and give her everything she thought she couldn't have. I find myself walking away from there to the kitchen to possibly pour myself one of the shit wines because i feel like shit but i find whiskey instead. "Hey slow down, you have a kid now," she says out of nowhere.