He makes my heart flutter!💓

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Renukha

At midnight, I was extremely disturbed that no matter how much I attempted to sleep, I couldn't, my brain just wouldn't shut down.

The thought of being away from my parents forthwith was torture for me to even imagine. I love Karthik, yes, but my parents are equally important to me. I couldn't lose one for another one, yet I did.

Now that I would be getting married, it will only increase the scale of my parent's resentment with me. It hurts cause I want their love...

But for that, I need to lose my Karthik whom I could never even think of being separated from. Sighing, I sat upright on the bed. Karthik was quick to notice me and he perched up as well.

"Renu?" I slightly turned to him. "Please don't get annoyed with me Karthik, but I can't be at peace." I couldn't watch his face clearly due to the lack of luminescence. "What should I do to make you be at peace?" I felt so guilty all of a sudden. How could I just say that I want my parents when he himself doesn't get that honor? Our situations are similar, but still, I'm being too pressed about it while he...was cool, maybe it was just a pretense.

"Don't you feel unpleasant that we would be getting married without our parents' presence..." He rubbed his forehead and ran his hand through his hair. "I do. But having you put down those worries." I was star-stuck.

"Why? Ain't your parents important to you?" He chuckled at my amused query. "Of course they are, but not as much as you.." I was disheartened. How could he say that? "No Karthik, it's bad. They raised you, loved you, and looked after you all these years. You can't just blurt out that I'm essential to you more than them, that's bad" He again laughed.

"Hmm, well, let me ask you a question" I nodded at him to go ahead. "Whom do you think your father loves and prioritizes more, your mom or your grandparents?" I couldn't help but get twisted as I examined the answer to his question.

Despite my dad being affectionate to his parents, I always knew that mom comes first to my dad. Even to my mother, her husband is the most important person in the whole world. I hadn't ever observed it under such light.

Suddenly, my head started to hurt as the base of my thought construction was subjected to disruption.

"It's your mom, am I wrong?" I was slightly embarrassed. "But Karthik, I can't love you more or less than my parents, no matter the extent of our journey" I genuinely stated my feelings.

Contrary to my expectation of gaining an irritated look from him, he smiled.

Softly, melting me.

"That might change when we start to live together..." I lend him a narrowed eye gaze. "You think so?" I tilted my head at him, truly curious. How would that be...

"I'm sure, Renu" he kissed the tip of my nose, saying that.

The kiss was feathery but it stirred all the right places within me. I was disdained by my mind. How could I even think of doing such things in such a critical and inappropriate situation? Not to mention that it was the sole reason why we were cornered to this strangling circumstance in the first place. It was my fault! My unrestrained and ridiculous hormones along with those insecurities pulled me to do something which I would have never permitted myself to perform, unless or until Karthik was my husband.

Besides that, he doesn't even remember a thing!

Well, now that I ponder upon it, that night was foggy to me as well. It occurred so fastly that I don't know when it started or when it came to an end. Everything was rushed. Back then, there were only this insatiable stimuli to acquire reassurance from each other and we acted upon it, not giving any regard to the consequences.