Secret baby (Old Version)

Chapter 37

Alic'a POV:

I stayed in bed.

After the little scene with Matt, I pushed him away and locked myself in this room. Zoey was sleeping but I wasn't.

I look at the clock for the 3rd time tonight, 2:27a.m it read. I sigh but turn back over to Zoey. I lift my hand up and start brushing threw her hair.

I don't want her to leave, but it would be best right? She won't have to see me in a mess. She won't have to be around all this drama. She will be hidden from the public eye for a while.

Then, if she left I would probably be more of a mess. I wouldn't have my comfort with me. My smile. My sunshine. She is my everything.

What is best? What would be the better decision? What would be better for her?

My thumb rubbed across her smooth cheek. She looked the same when she was asleep. Happy and problem free. I smiled and continued to brush through her hair.

It hit me like a ton of bricks. 'We leave tomorrow.'

I have to make my decision tonight. Tears started to make way down my face. I don't know what to do.

I slowly got out of bed and grabbed my phone. I made sure Zoey was covered up and walked slowly to the small couch we had. I placed my phone on the floor before I fell onto the couch and sobbed quietly. I felt so broken. I had no one to talk to, I had no one to understand. I wish my dad was here...

Then I did what I haven't done in a while...I prayed. It was the only way I felt like I could talk to my dad. The only way I still felt connected to him. I pray to him when times get rough. When I was pregnant with Zoey I talked to him every single night.

I haven't talked to him because I've been busy. I've had Zoey and her arm, Magcon, My music career, Matt and Shawn.

I put my hands together and whispered,"Daddy...I need you now more then ever. Things have been getting hard and I don't know how to deal with them. Matt just confessed that he loved me." More tears leaked out.

"And I just had the best date with Shawn. He took Zoey and I to the studio where I recorded the best song. I even met Justin Bieber. I have to pick either Shawn or Matt. These problems don't seem to stop." I held the one of many sobs back.

"I also have to choose if Zoey stays on tour or not. She's only 4, daddy. She doesn't need the spotlight on her. Then again I don't want to let her go..." I took a brief pause.

"She's my world, but I have to do what is best. That's what you did. You left for the military and did you duty when I was little. I was your world but you let me go. That's what I have to do. I have to let Zoey go to Brook and do what I signed to do." I finally made my decision.

"I love you daddy. Talk to you soon." I opened my eyes and wiped away my tears. I grabbed my phone off the floor and unlocked it.

I went through my contact list before I found the right one. Matt.

It rang for awhile before I heard a tired voice. "Alic?" He sounded quiet confused on why I was calling him at 2:45a.m. "We have to discuss something on Zoey." My voice cracked from all my crying.

I got up and went to the bathroom, because I know somewhere there might be yelling. "Did something happen?!" He sound panicked.

"Nothing happened, I just made a decision and since your her dad...I thought I had to include you in it."

"Ok, keep going." He sound tired again. Relaxed. I wish I could be relaxed right now.

"Zoey is going with Brook back to California. She doesn't need to be in the spotlight and on social media. Im also trying to figure some thing out, I'm a mess right now and she can't see me like this. I'm deleting most of my singing videos with her off of YouTube. I want her to be able to go to school with a mob of girls and boys wanting to see her. I want her to be able to make real friends and not fake ones who just want to meet her dad." He was quiet the whole time I explain my reasonings., but you know what the say.

That was the calm before the storm.

It was silent for about 5 minutes before he started laughing. "Your joking, right?" All the tiredness was gone from his voice. He was all serious.

"I'm not joking Matt. I'm doing what's be-" he interrupted me. "Doing what's best?! I just got her to call me Dad! I just met her Alic! Are you doing this to get back at me?" He questioned.

"No why would I have to-" he interrupted me once again.

"I don't want to hear bullshit! What did I do? Why do you hate me!" He kept yelling.

"I don't hate you! You didn't do anything, I'm doing what's best for her and that's final. Goodbye Matt. Come over tomorrow if you want to come say goodbye." I say calmly. I ended the call and came out the bathroom.

I quietly walked back to the bed. I laid back down next to Zoey. I can make this last call next to her. Hopefully her number is still the same but knowing her, it is.

I dialed it slowly, not sure if I should be doing this. I pressed the green call button and held it next to my ear.

It started ringing, making my heart pound harder. It felt like forever. When in reality it was only 4 rings.

"Hello." The voice felt comforting and healthy. Not the same voice I remembered from years ago. It's the voice I remembered from when I was little.

"Mom, it's Alic."