Secret baby (Old Version)

Chapter 18

Alic's POV:

Im supposed to feel excited that Shawn remembers me right? Then why don't I feel that way. Don't get me wrong I'm happy that he knows who I am...its just the whole Matt thing is still on me. Maybe Shawn was right, maybe I should talk to him. Okay, I will talk to him after dinner.

I got up off the couch and opened the door to our room. This hotel is different. They have a living room separated from the actual bedroom. It's pretty cool looking.

I see mahogany playing with Zoey. "Hey, can you watch Zoey while I take a shower?" I asked. "Of course! She's so adorable!" She smiled. "I know right!"

I chuckled and went into the bathroom to take my shower. I turn on the shower to the warmth I was satisfied with, stripping my clothes off I get in. I feel my muscles relax as the water runs down my back.

I wet my hair washing it with my cocoanut shampoo and conditioner. I then wash my body with the soap provided by the hotel. Once I'm done I turn the shower off and open the curtains. I take the soft towel off the toilet seat (I put it there before my shower.) and dry myself off.

"Ugh.." Of course I forgot my clothes out in the bedroom. I open the door with the towel held close to me. I walk out hoping nobody except for Mahogany and Zoey was in here. Everyone likes to come to our room. I don't know why though.

My luck Nash, Cam, Jack and Jack and Matt were here. I blush and walk over to my suit case casually. "Woah Alic um...." Jack G says. "Don't make it awkward!" I warn. He laughs. I just take the whole case and go back in the bathroom.

What is Matt doing here? Probably to see Zoey. Right? I mean he wouldn't be here to see me. What if he's here for Mahogany? I feel my stomach do flips and I suddenly feel sick. No she wouldn't do that...She knows what's happening and she's my bestfriend.

I just need to get ready and try to have Matt talk to me. I grab high waisted red shorts, a white tank top that's loose with diamonds on it and Jean flannel. I decided to leave my hair to dry by its self, since my hair is naturally straight. I just put a normal black beanie.

My makeup I do cover-up, a cats eye, mascara and red lip stick. I look at my finished master piece. WOAH! Ok then.... I never looked this good before. I smile and walk out the bathroom.

My surprise everyone is here....except Matt. "Where is Matt?" I spoke my mind. "He stormed off wh- woah." Jack J said. He looked me up and down. Everyone else looked back at me with wide eyes. Being honest I felt uncomfortable. "Um...guys? Where is Matt?" I ask again. "Oh yea sorry um he left when you went back into the b-bathroom." Jack J said still starring at me.

"Ok thank you." I said. "Your welcome." I heard all of them say. I go over to my bed and get my white Vans, putting them on and going out the door. On my way out I see Mahogany and Zoey. "Good luck with Matt." Mahogany says. Oh he's mad. I guess he's in his room. I walk a couple doors down and knock on his door.

He doesn't answer. I bang on the door. "Matt I know you're in there! Open the door now please!" I yell. I hear a sigh and the locks unlocking on the door. "What?" He says with an attitude. "Can I come in to talk?"

He thinks for a minute and opens the door. I walk in. The room is dark like the last time I came in his hotel room. With only a bit of sunlight shinning through the blind from the sun setting. He closes the door. "What did you wanna talk about?" He asked. He seems annoyed.

"About all of this...why aren't you talking to me?" I asked. He looks at my like I'm stupid and sits on the bed. "What so you don't recall keeping Zoey from me?" He asked. " I thought we talked about this." I whispered. "Alic you lied!" He yelled. What is he talking about?

"What? I didn't lie. I told you the truth." I said calmly. He rolls his eyes. "I know you Alic. Like the back of my hand. When you lie you bit your lip in the middle of talking. That's what you did." He said getting up from the bed. "I don't know what you lied about I'm trying to figure it out."

"Matt I didn't lie." I said throwing my hands up in the air. "Sometimes I wonder if you lied about me being the father." He said look straight into my eyes. "W-what? No never would I lie about that Matt! Come on she looks exactly like you, don't you see it?" I yelled. "No...I don't. Alic I just wanna know what you lied about." He pulls his hair a little.

"Matt-"

"No tell me! Just stop being a bitch!" He yelled. That's what broke my heart. Matt never called me a name. I felt the tears coming and I knew I couldn't hold them back. "Fine! Matt I didn't tell you because I was scared! I loved you! I had it stuck in my head that you didn't love me and I ran away! I ran away! I didn't tell my mom! I didn't tell Cameron, Shawn, Nash, I told no one Matt! I stole money from my mom to buy a airline ticket to stay with my aunt! I wanted to run away from my love for you! I wanted you to have a better life! Be happy with a girl who is pretty, funny, amazing and everything I'm not! I didn't want you to hate me for this! I also didn't want you to think I was a fake and was trying to get with you! No, but after thinking all about you! I'm the bitch!" I yell finally letting all of the truth out.

I didn't even admit it to myself, but I was scared. I did run away. Matt stayed silent just starring at me. I let all my tears come out. Everything I've been holding in for years. "I've been nothing, but a wreck and I never said this out Loud. I'm scared. I'm scared to care for Zoey because I'm afraid one day she won't love me the way I love her." I cry. He doesn't say a word. I walk to the door trying not to sob.

I twist the handle to open the door but I feel a hand pull my arm back. He closes the door again and pins me to the closest wall. I look down at our touching chests. His forehead on my shoulder. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to call you that name. It just slipped out my mouth." He apologized.

I stayed quiet. "Alic...Zoey will always love you. You're an amazing mom. Everybody loves someone one day. Everybody. I have the best life. I have my friends, fans, Zoey and you. Truth is I'm afraid to loose you guys. That I will do something stupid and you guys will never forgive me." He explained. I felt tears on my shoulders.

I still don't say anything. It's like I'm stuck. I think it's that fact that he's hugging me. "Please Alic talk to me." he begged. I don't know what to say. My mind, my body, my thoughts. They are all stuck.

"It's not your fault. It's mine, if I would've just told you except for leaving and not telling you. Things would have been probably good, but we we could've ended up like those family's on teen mom. The ones that were so in love and right before the baby is born they get into a fight and break up. I don't wanna be like one of those families." I say rambling.

I hear him chuckle lowly. "What is so funny Mr.Espinosa?" I asked feeling a bit curious on why he was laughing. "Nothing." He said finally looking at me. "Oh no, come on share." I encourage. "You're just to cute." He says.

I start to blush. I look down at our still touching bodies. He called me cute. He called me cute! Matthew Espinosa called me cute!

"Alic." He whispers grabbing my chin, and made me look up at him. I looked into his eyes and fell a little deeper for him. His eyes. There just amazing. They take over my body and make me do what ever they command.

He looks at my lips and back at my eyes. I bit my bottom lip in anticipation. He starts to lean in. My stomach does flips and the excitement builds up. Suddenly he stops half way. I groan in frustration.

Why does he have to do this to me? Seriously! I meet up with him and smash my lips onto his. He was surprised at first not expecting me to be that fast with it, but he kisses back fast.

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Sorry that I haven't updated for a while. I'm trying to keep up with school, but during last week on my free time I would write this chapter. I hope you enjoy!

QOTD: what's your favorite color?

AOTD: Purple.