Eleanor's Journal

Part 7

Kayla has been texting me today. I thought he would never talk to me again. I really do miss him. But she said that if i want to have her in my life i have to mak a choice. But if i date kayla i lose livi and i;m msierable. if i date livi then i lose kayla and im miserable. Or i dont' date either of them them i'm sad and misertable. And when i date one 9f them i just miss the other. So i'm going to try and just be friends wiith bot of them. Maybe it will make or help me stop scrubbling. It started with me bein g in a relationship. It started with feeking like i wasnt good enough. And since i started dating i ocnstantly feel like im' not good enough. And rgen it just feels like AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH all the time.