Eleanor's Journal

Entry 43

Today has been a day from hell.
I guess it started to waking to an empty room and remembering that I have no one. Only be drug into the most painful experience of my life. Livi threatened to kill herself again. Every time they do it it makes me want to die. I can't talk to Kayla about it this. I'll talk to Kayla about anything else but not this. There were several times today that I wish that I just died in the crash. Everything would be easier. I wouldn't have to worry about how I'm going to pay for the surgeries or therapy or anything like that. Frankie came over and brought Nikolaus and Penelope she let me hold them. I wish I could do more. But I can't with a broken knee and a broken shoulder. But I can't do anything. I can't even go to the bathroom. Siiigh. I talked to Kayla earlier I was worried about him. But when I said goodnight and that I loved her she didn't say it back. So I guess he changed his mind. I don't blame her. I wouldn't love me either. OH but on the bright side Frankie offered to help take care of me while I get better.