Eleanor's Journal

entry 91

She may never come back. She's never coming back to new york. Why should i stay in new york. Livi is going to kill herself, Kayla is gone, she hates me. I just feel it. I hate me too. I can't even be happy at disney because i hate myself too much. After talking to her i threw up, and if livi hadn't followed me i definitely would've scrubbed. But i don't like when people know because then they freak out. UGH i wish i wasn't so fucking stupid.