Eleanor's Journal

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The crazy thing about breakups is what to do with everything.

I went from having someone else at my house almost 24/7 to nobody. The silence is unbearable

Where do I put the clothes she gave me? Do I donate them? Do I put them in a box in my garage?

What about the trip she gifted me for Christmas 3 weeks ago? Do I just miss out? Does she go without me? Do I go without her? Does no one go?

What about the little pieces of her that are now engrained into my everyday, the way she organized the cabinets the way she tied up all of our grocery bags.

And what about my bed, do I just sleep like this for the rest of my life? Do I throw the whole bed out? Just replace all my sheets? Never sleep in the bed again, just a couch sleeper for the rest of my life?

Today I caught myself accidentally turning lights off because you always turned them off behind you, but I leave them on.

I don't know what to do anymore.