Circle of Life

27.

Hindi nga nagkamali si Imelda, right after zoey had run off from the Cementery she went home. She imediately went through her parents room, it was not messy it was the same as before the day they went to the hospital clean and neat.

"This would never feel the same anymore", she stated and look through the room again

Zoey had make sure that no one would touch her parents things without her consent eversince the day she lost them,  the room is filled with her father and mother perfumes.

"I don't want this change, your room still smells and feels like you two but you aren't here anymore", she once said with full of pain.

She went to the bed as she hug the pillows and cried again, everything is not the same anymore. The jolly zoey had become the complete opposite of it, she doesn't want people to ser her in an awful state.

"I want to be strong but I can't, I really can't I need you, I need you both", she stated while heavily crying she doesn't care how she looks all she want right now is to ve with her parents.

She thought she's ready when she choose to let her mommy go but she was wrong she wasn't and will not be okay within it, she just choose to say it but not accepting and admitting it.

"Why did you have to hurt me like this mommy and daddy? Hindi pa tayo okay oh?! How can I overcome this all? Help me mommy please ang gulo gulo na po. I don't know how to handle this without you, pleaseeeee!", She sobbed at the bottom of her lungs not until the clock beside the bed fell off for no reason.

Zoey look at it and saw an envelope together with a long brown envelope just like her mommy gave her that night when everything was revealed about her true identity, she wiped her tears and with courage she choose to open.

The first one consisted of the document from the adoption paper to the birth certificate and up until the DNA test and a copy of picture where she was still a baby Irene carrying her in a hospital bed and emmeline satted beside them. She then opened the next envelope and it was a letter from her mother.

"Hi baby,

By the time that you read it I know I'm not beside you anymore, sorry for leaving you too early I know this wasn't as planned but what can I do? Its the reality itself who made and judge the time I'll be spending with you. Baby, always remember that you're my greatest blessing the love of my life, you had complete me you made me feel what it fells like to be a mother. You were too perfect anak, just too perfect to have where I couldn't ask for more. Please always bear in mind that mommy loves you too dearly, always look for the brighter side of everything okay?

And please don't be too hard on yourself by my passing, wala man ako sa tabi mo physically but always know that I'm just always around you anak. And know its time for you to take a step from your home and to be back to your true home your family, this would be a big shock to you. But please understand everything baby, I raised you I know you zoey. You're strong and understanding, its okay for you to be mad at me to all of us but I hope that anger you had inside will not rule over you on how would you treat yourself and other. It would be hard but I hope you would find forgiveness, it shall take time anak, your healing would take time.

I had left you a love and care you deserve which you had intercepted in me, continue to be the girl I had used to know. Extend your love and care to your family, to your parents don't be too harsh and hard to them. Be that sweet and clingly little girl I had raised, be with them anak. Stay with them its now thier time to show you how much they love and care for you. Let them help you overcome the pain you had inside.

Sorry that mommy didn't prepare you for this one anak, but I love you and I would always love you. If you ever missed me you could again do the things we loved to do to ease your feeling. I'll miss you aking Unica Hija.