Blink And You'll Miss It (Chicago PD)

But I Do

When I pulled up to the building, it was dark. Like extremely dark. I was waiting for someone or something to jump out of the alley and attack me but no one did.

It was a large gloomy warehouse with dark red bricks that hadn't been cleaned in years. I grabbed my torch and shone it at the windows but I couldn't see in. Clearly, they were using some kind of reflective glass.

I was about to open the door when my phone pinged, startling me, nearly making me drop my torch.

I looked down to see a text from Luke telling me to climb to the top of the building. This guy never makes it easy does he.

It's the fact that there isn't even a ladder, meaning I couldn't hold a weapon in my hand. He was most likely timing me because he likes to tease me if I'm too slow.

I did climb the building though. My hands were fucked though from the amount of times I slipped.

When I finally reached the roof, a rough hand grabbed mine and pulled me to my feet before he walked away, wiping his hand on his trousers.

"You should've come from the other side, there wasn't as much moss."

"Thank you for telling me that after I had climbed it, really helpful."

"You're welcome."

"What do you want to talk about?" I asked him, wanting to get home quickly.

I was cold and I was in a bad mood. I wasn't here to play games. I was here to get information and then go.

"You are a friendly one today aren't you."

"I'm not here to chat, you wanted to meet and here I am. It's been a long day so I suggest you spit it out."

"I love you too." He said while rolling his eyes.

"Why do you do that?" I questioned.

"Do what?"

"That. Say I love you and that crap. I told you that years ago and yet, you ignored me."

"Just forget about it."

"No! I loved you! You shot me and I nearly died but I still loved you. Why can't I forget about you!?"

"Because love is a strong emotion."

*Luke's Pov*

This wasn't how I wanted the night to go. I've hurt her and I can hear it in her voice. She's trying so hard to not let her voice break but I can still hear it.

"I don't care. I tried to get through to you. I thought I could save you but I didn't. I failed you. I left you! You dragged me across the floor for godsakes! But I still loved you!"

"I know." I responded as I nodded my head, trying to tell her that I understood what she was saying.

"No you don't. You never said you loved me back. You took me to the hospital after I passed out because you thought I was dying. You took me to the hospital after I beat up your whole entire team. I killed one of yours but you stuck by me. You told me to shut up the first time I got there and I didn't listen. You have saved my life so many times and I never returned the favour. When I shot you in that hotel room, it was for revenge. But I hated every second of it. Every time I lose it and think about the awful things I went through, you pull me back. Your voice that told me that it was going to be alright runs through my head. I love you, Luke. I know it's wrong because we are supposed to hate each other but I can't."

"Why do you think I've stuck by you all these years? Watch you grow from some scared fifteen year old to one of the most powerful women in the world. I didn't care what the others boys thought of me. I was a traitor! But I would drop everything and everyone if it meant you weren't alone in the world. I should've stuck by them but I couldn't. I couldn't risk losing the one thing that kept me sane. And that was you, Taylor. I loved you but I never had the strength to admit it because I didn't want to lose you. The second I said it, I thought my whole world would crumble and that you would be gone. I can't live in a world without you. So yeah, I said it. I loved you and I still do! I know it's not fair because you have Jay but I'm a selfish person and I go after the things I want. I'm like a lion who has been starved for years and you're my prey. You are the deer that keeps escaping my grasp but I still chase because I want you."