Where I End (Book 3 to the Why me series)

Chapter 18 - May 24 2015

I lay and think about Aiko. Why I'm thinking about Aiko? I have no reason. I started to think about her and Kaito, before spring break they were like a happy couple then when they came back they acted like strangers around each other.

I then started to think about me liking Kai when I was little. I was in 4th grade walking with my old friend Yuri and I was telling her that my crush then, Jean, was moving and I was really bummed about it. Then Kai came past me on his skateboard and we made eye contact, he gave me a smile and a wink and right then and there is when I started to like him.

In my school Kai was a popular guy and I was just me. (Me and Timiko had are own group ;).) I really liked him, he was all I would ever think about. I can't even describe how much I loved him...but we kept our distance and stayed quiet around each other, which tore me apart.

I remember making a promise to myself that I won't give up on Kai and that I would make him mine. But then Hiro came into my life... and he showed me so much. He helped me see that the person I thought I belonged with was that person. I really regret liking Kai. I really do. I want to erase that part of my life so badly.

Hmmm. Aiko...Kai. Kyoko...Hiro.
Kyoko...Kai. Hiro...Aiko. My eyes slowly widen and get watery. Hiro is doing the same thing I did. He has fallen for someone out of his league like I did. He can't stop thinking about the person like I did. He has vowed to himself that he won't give up...like I did.

Hiro doesn't know what he is falling into, in my opinion regret is the worst pain you can ever feel and I'm afraid he will feel that soon about Aiko. But I can't stop him, there is nothing I can do to stop him from liking Aiko. I want to do something but I can't...I just can't.

But there is something I am going to do though. I'm going to sit and watch. I'm going to sit and watch the path he is running down and there will be a point where that path will end and he'll be lost and wanting to turn around or there will be a point where he will ask me for help. But I won't help him. I've done enough already. And if he asks why then he is going to have to find out.

And when he finds out...he will start regretting every little step he has taken.