Where I End (Book 3 to the Why me series)

Bonus Letter?

To Yamato: Sometimes I sit and think how lucky I am to have to you. Sometimes I sit and think are you the one I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. Sometimes I sit and think how would life be if I never met you. Sometimes I sit and think am I really that good enough for you...or do you deserve someone better? I mean I'm still wondering...out of all the girls that you could have picked from you chose me, I was expecting to be like a the bottom of your list. If you want the honest truth I've never really wrote a note or a letter or whatever this is to my past boyfriends...but if I did write them a note it was about there depression or our relationship which always lead to something bad. I also remembered I had to watch what I said around them because if I brought up a certain topic it would just be a big slap in the face. But with you your different...I can actually talk to you about whatever and I won't end up regretting it or getting hurt in the end. I can actually kiss your cheek without worrying if you'll move away or not. I can hold your hand for as long as want without thinking "he's probably going to let go in a minute or two". I can actually tell you some really personal stuff without getting yelled at in the end. This is just some of the many reasons why I don't want to lose you...your my only boyfriend that actually treats me like I'm worth something. I know I shouldn't think this but...sometimes I sit and think, what if we do break up...what if I screw everything up or what if you just get tired of me? How will I be able to hack it then? That's why I'm trying my hardest not to mess this up because most of the time I'm like the main reason why I'm always getting hurt. And if I mess this up then I will go insane. Yamato, I love you...I really do. I wish you were my first and last boyfriend because I don't want to remember what happened in the past to me. I wish I could spend every moment of my life with you but it can't be like that cause...well cause it's life. But what I'm trying to say is...I love you so much that I want to be with you forever, there's no one else in this world that will fit me perfectly the way you do. I want you to promise that you won't ever leave me alone in the dark because I'll tell you now...if you break my heart that will be the first and last you'll see go like total dark. I love Yamato Tanaka. Forever and always.

To Kyoko: I think about the day that we got together and I had wondered is this the girl that I want to be with for the rest of my life or will I mess it up and her break up with me but now I just think of the future for us like how I could make you happy or what to do for your birthday or how I could stay with you forever I am always happy to be with you even if you aren't next to me I feel you in my heart your the perfect girlfriend that anyone could have and I am surprised that out of all the guys in this world you choose me to be with I know I'm not perfect but I only need you to make me perfect I will protect you with my life even if I have to die for you no girl can ever compare to you your so beautiful and you have stunning eyes, perfect cheeks, cute smile, adorable laugh, amazing little nose, beautiful hair and the most beautiful personality I wish I could show you my love for you its greater than anything you can imagine I love you more than anything I love you more than the team I admit that we fight a lot but that's what a perfect couple is we fight, cry, love, make up, we are always happy with each other even in the hardest times I wish you were my first girlfriend I never wrote her something like this because I love you and I hardly even liked her I am glad I broke up with her your the perfect girl for me I'm the most happiest person alive ever since I got with you you are the brightest thing that has happened to me in my life since everything bad happened to me I love you so much my little cheeto always and forever I promise I will never break up with you your the only one for me and will always be the only one for me I'll always be here for you forever. I love you always and forever.