Where I End (Book 3 to the Why me series)

Chapter 6 - May 1 2015 (Part 2)

I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling with my fist clutched. Right now while I'm laying here I'm just thinking about all of the memories me and Hiro shared. There were good ones and there were bad ones, there were ones where we were both laughing and ones where we were both yelling. Some of us hugging and some of us crying, some of us just plain talking and others just ignoring each other.

People have been telling me that me and Hiro should get back together but...we can't. I have gave him two chances with my heart and he hurt it...but then he healed it. I'm going to be honest I would date Hiro again, but I can't because I don't want to get my heart broken by him again or possibly be the one breaking his heart cause that's the last thing I want to do.

Ugh Hiro. Sometimes I wish I didn't like him but at other times I get so happy that I fell in love with him. Some people think I am plain crazy but, sometimes I think it was fate that brought us together. I mean just think about it we met out of know where and I started liking him right then and there, usually I get to know a person before I start liking them but with Hiro I began to like him right then and there.

Hiro doesn't know I have liked him since sixth grade. He thinks I started liking him the second time him and Erika broke up. I want to tell him but I just don't know how...I know, I'll tell him at graduation and I know exactly what to say.

I turn around and grab my phone, which is on my bookshelf, and turn it on. I go on to my notes and create A new one. I sit and think for a bit then I begin to type.

Hiro...there is something I have been keeping from you and I think you should know before I leave because if I don't tell you I just know I will regret it. That first time we met was...when I started to like you. And I found that really weird for me because usually I get to know a guy before I start to like them but no...with you it was different. Now that I think about it, all those times when I said I didn't like like you, I didn't realize till now that...those feelings that I had for you from the start...they were still there. I just kept holding them in...until now. And I won't ever hold them back again. I love you Hiro and I think I always will.

There. This is it right here. This right here will determine where me and Hiro will end. Although...I'm a bit nervous. What if Hiro doesn't like me and I end up embarrassing myself. What if he doesn't feel the same way I feel about him?

I turn off my phone and lay back down in my bed and close my eyes, all of a sudden I feel a tear run down my right cheek followed by a other one on my left, I slowly start to cry.

Why did I have to fall in love with Hiro. Why me. And why did he fall in love with me. What is it about me. And what will Hiro think once I tell him how I feel. Where will we end?

I fell asleep with a smile on my face because I was thinking of Hiro and I usually smile when I think of him, but I also was still crying because I was terrified where me and Hiro will end and I pray that he will feel the same way I feel about him...

You know when your in love when you can't look that special someone in the eye and say "get out of my life and stay out" because you know you need them in your life.